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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

November 2nd 2026
Feb 8, 2026
95
I feel like I can't do anything. All I do is stay in bed all day. Can't clean my room, can't get a job, can't do chores around the house other then emptying the dishwasher. Half of the time I can't even make myself dinner. I'm even feel too lazy to leave my room for more then half the day. I don't know whats wrong with me.

I know I can do things that require energy. Like a month or two ago I went on walks every third day for a week or two with hardly any issues. A few weeks ago I spent hours researching stuff about animals just for my own entertainment. I've started making dinner almost daily since a week ago. But then, everytime things seem to go right, suddenly I can't do any of those things anymore. Its so weird. It fucks up my life so badly too. Like I'll get a job, be fine for a few days, then just collapse.

I wish I could just be normal, but I don't think that will ever happen
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
878
I go through these phases too. I don't even understand it sometimes. I remember before I got fired for not showing up again, that morning even being awake in plenty of time to go to work. But just lying there. Not wanting to. I didn't even have a reason really. I just wanted to lie there. And hope the issue would somehow resolve itself.

Cooking is the same. I go through phases where I can do it for maybe a week at most. Then one night I can't be bothered. And next thing you know I haven't eaten dinner for a week. Cleaning dishes - I just walked over and looked at them before, then walked back to the desk. Didn't want to deal with it.

Don't have any answers unfortunately. Just wish I could understand it. But I hear ya.
 
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Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,070
I feel like I can't do anything. All I do is stay in bed all day. Can't clean my room, can't get a job, can't do chores around the house other then emptying the dishwasher. Half of the time I can't even make myself dinner. I'm even feel too lazy to leave my room for more then half the day. I don't know whats wrong with me.

I know I can do things that require energy. Like a month or two ago I went on walks every third day for a week or two with hardly any issues. A few weeks ago I spent hours researching stuff about animals just for my own entertainment. I've started making dinner almost daily since a week ago. But then, everytime things seem to go right, suddenly I can't do any of those things anymore. Its so weird. It fucks up my life so badly too. Like I'll get a job, be fine for a few days, then just collapse.

I wish I could just be normal, but I don't think that will ever happen
Are you anemic?
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

November 2nd 2026
Feb 8, 2026
95
Are you anemic?
Nah, I don't think so. I had my bloods done awhile back and everything was normal except for a slightly high white blood cell count and a folic acid deficiency (which I've been taken medication for)
I go through these phases too. I don't even understand it sometimes. I remember before I got fired for not showing up again, that morning even being awake in plenty of time to go to work. But just lying there. Not wanting to. I didn't even have a reason really. I just wanted to lie there. And hope the issue would somehow resolve itself.

Cooking is the same. I go through phases where I can do it for maybe a week at most. Then one night I can't be bothered. And next thing you know I haven't eaten dinner for a week. Cleaning dishes - I just walked over and looked at them before, then walked back to the desk. Didn't want to deal with it.

Don't have any answers unfortunately. Just wish I could understand it. But I hear ya.
I'm glad to hear I'm not alone in this. I hope we both someday get answers đź«‚
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,587
I'm at maximum laziness, not even eating unless my dad makes me something. Cleaning or shopping is out of the question. I have committed suicide in every way except the act. But now laziness has devoured that too. I lack the courage to put my neck in the noose. But what else is gonna happen? How can I leave the house and do anything? I chose my path, and I can't walk it. I am maximally paralyzed.
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
808
People think I'm extremely lazy, but this is just the chronic pain in my joints and the depression doing it's thing. I was once very active person, hiking and climbing hills that were almost 3000 meters tall. I miss my hikes so much. I looked at those hills two years ago from far and I cried when I remembered what I irreversibly lost - my health :'(;-;
 
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