Venting i got better but now i’m spiraling again

[iheartreb]

since this site got banned from my country and i got banned on twitter i finally got away from all the negativity around me, i left my first relationship and actually found someone else more loving and perfect. that ended in august and since then i started prostituting myself online to feel anything at all. i've been having intense suicidal thoughts again and i really want to get better again but i have no one to ask for help.. i don't wanna act on my urges i wanna feel good again like i used to. i miss being loved. being consumed by loneliness is just eating me from the inside out. i just feel so lost. i just really needed to get this off my chest

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

I am so sorry you are dealing with this.

Love is amazing, and I hope you find your someone special. But I know depression can make that a lot harder.

Do you have a social services district in your county / province / area? If so, they may be able to connect you with low-cost therapy / psychiatry if that's a barrier.