I finally decided to ctb

[DimaD]

I am 19 and still living with my parents and have no money, that is why I am not able to ctb with the exit bag. I can not take it any longer, everyday is just a pain in the ass. I am tired of hearing to not do it because it will get better eventually, it won´t . I have struggled with depression since I was 12 , went to therapy and all. I decided to hang myself, when they´re not home. I know it will not be a quick and painless death but I am gonna do it under the influence , so it is at least not that painful. I will ctb tomorrow and I am really scared to do it but at the same time never felt happier and so light in my life. There is not really a reason to keep living anymore.

Wish me luck!

 

[Jadeith]

Well...
i wish you'd chosen other way but....
who am i to decide this for you or question your choices.
painless journey for you.

 

[DimaD]

Well...
i wish you'd chosen other way but....
who am i to decide this for you or question your choices.
painless journey for you.

Do you mean in ´chosen other way´ a diffrent ctb method or to choose life ? If it is the first, feel free to give me some other options

 

[Jadeith]

No, friend. It was the the second option. You deserve pain free life, not only pain free death. And my wish was that you could experience that.
Yes, i understand that it would take shitton of effort with no guarantee of success and in some circumstances one might not be willing to take a risk of trying and failing. No judgement here. Just wish you didn't have to suffer. That's all.

 

[Kalista]

leave well

 

[human909]

I hope you leave in a peaceful way, I wish you good luck.

 

[yukiovos]

I am 19 and still living with my parents and have no money, that is why I am not able to ctb with the exit bag. I can not take it any longer, everyday is just a pain in the ass. I am tired of hearing to not do it because it will get better eventually, it won´t . I have struggled with depression since I was 12 , went to therapy and all. I decided to hang myself, when they´re not home. I know it will not be a quick and painless death but I am gonna do it under the influence , so it is at least not that painful. I will ctb tomorrow and I am really scared to do it but at the same time never felt happier and so light in my life. There is not really a reason to keep living anymore.

Wish me luck!

Are you doing partial or full suspension hanging?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Hope you find peace soon, best of luck

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[DimaD]

Are you doing partial or full suspension hanging?

Atypical Hanging

 

[Manic Panic]

Wishing you the best

 

[iamgood]

Atypical Hanging

are u still there ?