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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

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Nov 12, 2021
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Soul is dead. Walls closing in but I can't find any motivation to do anything about it.

All I can do is scrounge for food.

Everything else is too much trouble.

My mind drifts back to this or that error I made over the past 50 years. Otherwise just killing time alone.
 
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Smart No More

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That sounds like a tough place to be in. Do you want to find your way out or are you resigned to falling into oblivion?

Do you get any relief from drugs at all? Sometimes they can help get the ball rolling on the motivation front but obviously come fraught with pitfalls. When at your lowest ebb though I feel like maybe it warrants consideration.

Sorry things suck man!
 
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That sounds like a tough place to be in. Do you want to find your way out or are you resigned to falling into oblivion?

Do you get any relief from drugs at all? Sometimes they can help get the ball rolling on the motivation front but obviously come fraught with pitfalls. When at yout lowest ebb though I feel like maybe it warrants consideration.

Sorry things suck man!
I did antidepressants for decades - made my brain mushy… Im out of gas…
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
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I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation. This life really can be so depressing as our thoughts can torture us. I know that it is awful when everything seems hopeless. I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find relief from your suffering.
 
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Smart No More

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I did antidepressants for decades - made my brain mushy… Im out of gas…
That sucks! I was actually referring to 'recreational' /illicit drugs. Stimulants can be beneficial for getting things done. They can have a crappy come down but I'm wondering if the resulting productivity and the fruits of that labour might outweigh the worst of it. I don't know really. Just wish I could send you a fix or offer some useful words of wisdom. Instead I suggest getting high, ha! Clear swing and miss on my part. Could help I guess. With moderation. Suffering sucks and when it hits a certain point I feel like left field options have more efficacy.

I can relate to your situation. I too am treading water until the inevitable pile on of straw breaks the camels back and its time to make one final move. That period can be made easier in the form of relief wherever you can get it. Just so long as you're able to avoid making things worse in the process. For me relief comes in things like benzos, Z drugs and opioid meds. Though it has to be only short bursts of use with decent gaps between them. You'll probably have experienced these alongside your anti depressant treatment. They're not for everyone.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

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Nov 12, 2021
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That sucks! I was actually referring to 'recreational' /illicit drugs. Stimulants can be beneficial for getting things done. They can have a crappy come down but I'm wondering if the resulting productivity and the fruits of that labour might outweigh the worst of it. I don't know really. Just wish I could send you a fix or offer some useful words of wisdom. Instead I suggest getting high, ha! Clear swing and miss on my part. Could help I guess. With moderation. Suffering sucks and when it hits a certain point I feel like left field options have more efficacy.

I can relate to your situation. I too am treading water until the inevitable pile on of straw breaks the camels back and its time to make one final move. That period can be made easier in the form of relief wherever you can get it. Just so long as you're able to avoid making things worse in the process. For me relief comes in things like benzos, Z drugs and opioid meds. Though it has to be only short bursts of use with decent gaps between them. You'll probably have experienced these alongside your anti depressant treatment. They're not for everyone.
I've had good times on MDMA and Mushrooms. But that was before my life collapsed and I relegated myself to couch potatoing.
I don't have the energy to reinvent myself at this point in life. But kind of you to offer advice.
 
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Know how you feel. I couldn't do most drugs now. It's too much work. They do work for some but I'm not upto it myself.

Tbh I was suggesting it more for relief and kind of body hacking but I get it. When you're done you're done.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

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Know how you feel. I couldn't do most drugs now. It's too much work. They do work for some but I'm not upto it myself.

Tbh I was suggesting it more for relief and kind of body hacking but I get it. When you're done you're done.
Well it's actually good advice as a form of body hacking… I used to be into all sorts of body hacking… Lots of exercise and special diets and therapy… Feels like another lifetime
 
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alexlondon365

what the hell am i doin here?
May 6, 2022
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same for me, i dread waking up every morning and then spend the day eating, lounging around home and surfing the net. no motivation for nothing, i just wanna do nothing until the money runs out and i end up on the street.
 
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