Venting I feel like I've finally given up

[Life_and_Death]

I could try.... No. And the more and more I think about it, the more and more I realize that this is me and I can't change it no matter how hard I try.

 

[muffin222]

I'm so sorry life has beaten you down like this. Whatever you decide to do in the end, we're here for you

 

[outofluck]

I can completely relate. I have tried so hard to change and 'heal.' It's ok to give up. Sometimes we just need to stop trying to change. It's exhausting. I'm not saying hurt yourself, or anything. But, it's ok to let the hopelessness at changing just wash through you and to feel the fing futility of it all, too. Sometimes I can get to a place of acceptance from here that gives my system a break.

our society is so obsessed with constant change, growth, and evolution and it's mostly just a racket to keep us all going insane and feeling like we are never enough. Sending yah love in the darkness.

 

[Arvinneedstodie]

I am always very close to that self realization, but every time, i refuse to fully accept that this is who I am, and that this is it. I keep coming up with hope and things to try. After so many years of deteriorating, only a series of miracles can turn things around for me, but here I am, still grinding it out for that little piece of hope.

I need to achieve that self realization and acceptance in order to move on and have peace. Without it, my life is torture.

 

[Ihate314]

I realized that crying or feeling empty are the only things I have to look forward to day after day. I need this to end

 

[imjustanemptyshell]

Hello.... I'm so sorry you're feeling this way... I feel the same too... Sending hugssss