Venting I feel like I’m dying every time with my heart condition and i just wish I was actually gone already

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Fuck everybody who knew my mental state and my physical state yet let me suffer alone, fuck everyone who allowed me to feel alone. If I can't die yet before my heart gives in, I will continue suffer with these thoughts from people who abused me and my heart giving out back and forth hurting me every time I breathe or think and after eating or if I don't eat or when I drink water or when I drink less water. I just wanna be gone and not feel this body anymore or live in this world where you are literally in hell and feel at fault for being hurt that you develop more psychological problems especially when you're born with health issues that hurts you and being blamed for it because you don't look unhealthy I wanna be gone!!

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm sorry for your suffering and the hell you are going through

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I'm sorry for your suffering and the hell you are going through

I just wish I was dead I keep being abused mentally and emotionally and have been physically for years I can't catch a break and don't want to be here and never have…

 

[soonnotkoei]

i can understand, being abused for something that isn't even your fault is definitely rough. sorry that you are suffering through this, wishing you the best.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I just wish I was dead I keep being abused mentally and emotionally and have been physically for years I can't catch a break and don't want to be here and never have…

You came to the right place to share your feelings, most of us don't want to be here. May you find some peace or comfort in knowing you are not alone.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

You came to the right place to share your feelings, most of us don't want to be here. May you find some peace or comfort in knowing you are not alone.

I'm glad to be here even though I know it's a secret underground world that can only do so much for us

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel and horrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand just wanting to be gone, I also wish to be free from all the suffering. But anyway I hope that you find the peace you search for.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel and horrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand just wanting to be gone, I also wish to be free from all the suffering. But anyway I hope that you find the peace you search for.

It's almost like there isn't any point in existing if people want out of it so much, yet the government has the control and willpower to believe it's something we're made to do because 'life is precious', yet in reality our bodies are literally being destroyed if we age or if we aren't born in the right circumstances to survive…