Sorry, I just found out my PM's aren't working just yet, since I'm new :(
I hope you find someone you can talk to and you can ease your mind and thoughts with

Maybe soon we can chat! I wish you lots of strength and power with whatever you're facing, I believe in you and I'm proud of you for making it this far, I know life can be rough, confusing and unfair. I truly hope you can feel heard and understood in this community, it seems very kind and welcoming :)
Lots of love and strength to you kind stranger !!