You mentioned "discourse" in your friend group -- are you particularly young and online? Did you get "called out" for some trivial wrongdoing? That strikes me as language a lot of people my age on social media would use, and if that's the case, I more than understand your pain and I'm sorry. Social media, by design, is a very divisive and rage-inducing place where people are encouraged to harm one another. What should remain harmless disputes among friends are blown up into accusations of abuse and evil-doing. It's scary and concerning how often people on those platforms make a mountain out of a molehill. You're probably a well-meaning person who made a human mistake and just couldn't keep up to date with "trends" in the internet's idea of morality. If you need to talk to a voice of reason or if you need someone to be there, my DMs are open. I hope things go back to normal and you'll be okay.