Help I don't want to ctb but options are looking grim

[underscore_nine]

hi, I really dont want to ctb. I have a hopeful future but my situation is getting worse as the days go by. Most of my family now hates me and im basically on my own except for my dad but I really hate myself but the world seems to hate me more. I don't want to suffer any longer but I want to try my best to live and be with my gf but i seriously just don't know how much longer I can handle existing...

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be dreadful and tiring being trapped in that situation, I get that it's awful when existing just continues to get worse, I find it so cruel how people suffer all through no fault of their own. But anyway best wishes.

 

[HAKMKS]

hi, I really dont want to ctb. I have a hopeful future but my situation is getting worse as the days go by. Most of my family now hates me and im basically on my own except for my dad but I really hate myself but the world seems to hate me more. I don't want to suffer any longer but I want to try my best to live and be with my gf but i seriously just don't know how much longer I can handle existing...

You have your dad and gf and that is not nothing.

Have you tried talking to a counselor?

 

[dontdoitlol]

hi, I really dont want to ctb. I have a hopeful future but my situation is getting worse as the days go by. Most of my family now hates me and im basically on my own except for my dad but I really hate myself but the world seems to hate me more. I don't want to suffer any longer but I want to try my best to live and be with my gf but i seriously just don't know how much longer I can handle existing...

i'm in a VERY similar boat as you. that hopeful future you talk about can be achieved. spend as much time with your gf as you can, that makes me feel better when i get real bad. it may not cure u but it makes u feel loved in those times of hate