Help i do not know what to do :(

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I am feeling so hopeless. My stepmom lost her job and now her and my dad are both out of work. This also means we no longer have health insurance which is what I was going try to my antiemetics with but now I can't even go see a doctor..no matter what. I am applying for medicaid but I think I missed the window for it. Fucking stuck here. Great. Just when I thought I figured it all out. I found a site to buy my sodium nitrite from. I think I just need to find one that sells prescription antiemetics too and maybe order some pain kills too but I think I can find those around town. I am just so fucking lost and depressed.