frail
★★★
- Nov 27, 2025
- 20
i want to cut off everybody i know all the time, i feel like they only use my for validation and don't care what happens to me. they never ask how im doing and even when they do it's just a pretense to showing me something they made and it makes me feel like my only worth is to artistically jerk them off for making shit.
i am the equivalent to a chatbot to them i don't fucking get it. i feel so lonely all the time but i hate getting close to people, its so frustrating because once this invisible threshold of vulnerability is met I just don't want to talk anymore because they'll hurt me or piss me off eventually.
and idk. it's hard to talk to anybody new in general because i'm so fucking ugly, i feel subhuman every time i see a mirror and it makes me just not want to go out ever. i can't really imagine ever talking to someone that looks like me, so why would someone else do it? i feel gross all the time and hate it. whenever I see someone pretty or confident i just feel even worse about myself and want to hurt myself so badly because I know ill never be like her, i just want to stay in my room and never embarrass myself by attempting to dress up. i got plastic surgery and still look fucking disgusting, i just need to brutalize myself at this point.
i'm just typing shit. sorry. i don't have an outlet and i feel so pissed off at myself and i can't even hit anything because of my skin condition would just make my hands hurt more if i did it so hahahaha i won the lottery everything is good always!!!!!!!!!!
i am the equivalent to a chatbot to them i don't fucking get it. i feel so lonely all the time but i hate getting close to people, its so frustrating because once this invisible threshold of vulnerability is met I just don't want to talk anymore because they'll hurt me or piss me off eventually.
and idk. it's hard to talk to anybody new in general because i'm so fucking ugly, i feel subhuman every time i see a mirror and it makes me just not want to go out ever. i can't really imagine ever talking to someone that looks like me, so why would someone else do it? i feel gross all the time and hate it. whenever I see someone pretty or confident i just feel even worse about myself and want to hurt myself so badly because I know ill never be like her, i just want to stay in my room and never embarrass myself by attempting to dress up. i got plastic surgery and still look fucking disgusting, i just need to brutalize myself at this point.
i'm just typing shit. sorry. i don't have an outlet and i feel so pissed off at myself and i can't even hit anything because of my skin condition would just make my hands hurt more if i did it so hahahaha i won the lottery everything is good always!!!!!!!!!!
