Venting I can’t do this anymore

[OhMyStars]

Every fucking day it's the same thing. Wake up, do nothing all day, cut myself and then go to bed. I'm so tired of it. I want to be able to peacefully go to bed and not wake up. Yes a shotgun would end all my issues but that's not what I want at this point. A gun is my last resort if I don't kill myself on the 4th. My main plan is to just take a ton of what ever medication I have in my house, get blackout drunk and die. If that doesn't work than I'm going to blow my fucking brains out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I just want to never wake ever again as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I hope you find the relief you search for.