Back pre-covid, I was a heavy user of this site. I visited daily, although not always posted. Slowly, I started to visit less and less and I thought I started to get better. Now, I'm back with the same depression. I'm taking therapy sessions but it's too early to say whether they are helping or not. Now, that I settled into adult life, I am so lonely. I hardly talk with my coworkers during the day. I only have one friend so if I'm not speaking to her I really don't have anyone to talk to. I don't have good benefits at my job, so I'm working most of the time in my silent office. At first, I tried to entertain myself. Listening to music, podcasts, youtube. I'm also taking classes to learn Japanese, but it's not really distracting me. I also don't feel any happiness from doing any of my other hobbies. I just feel so insignificant. No one cares about me and I known since I was young because everyone never asked me how I was feeling. I always came second to my brother who was the more charismatic and friendliest. When it was just me, I just felt like the furniture in the background. I want to help myself, but sometimes I feel like what's the point? I'm always going to be alone and if I die hardly anyone is going to care.
I know my mother always wanted to have children but I wish she wouldn't have given birth to me.
I know my mother always wanted to have children but I wish she wouldn't have given birth to me.
