I've been dealing with gastroparesis for about 5 years now. It's been hell. The last few months I've been avoiding food as much as possible and having one "meal" a day about mid day.
I've given up solids mostly this past week. I let myself have a pickle now and then just to chew something but I'm otherwise living off gummy vitamins and Gatorade. Of course the pain I experience has lessened because I'm not really eating.
When the pain stops I become so hungry usually but I went 3 days without that "meal" - then I caved and had a fast food sandwhich (junk food is easier to digest)
Now I'm right back in serious pain.
I simply cannot sustain myself AND be pain free it seems. Everything hurts now.
Aside from the food issues I also have some sorta panic disorder thanks to the cause - vagus nerve damage. I can't keep my moods in check anymore and everyone hates me as a result even though I've explained and begged for them to stop pushing my now very raw buttons. I feel like I've become a total monster and I cannot live with myself yet alone expect anyone else to.
I'm so exhausted by this disease. It's the main reason I want to die.
It requires so much management just to feel like crap still. I'm so tired
I've given up solids mostly this past week. I let myself have a pickle now and then just to chew something but I'm otherwise living off gummy vitamins and Gatorade. Of course the pain I experience has lessened because I'm not really eating.
When the pain stops I become so hungry usually but I went 3 days without that "meal" - then I caved and had a fast food sandwhich (junk food is easier to digest)
Now I'm right back in serious pain.
I simply cannot sustain myself AND be pain free it seems. Everything hurts now.
Aside from the food issues I also have some sorta panic disorder thanks to the cause - vagus nerve damage. I can't keep my moods in check anymore and everyone hates me as a result even though I've explained and begged for them to stop pushing my now very raw buttons. I feel like I've become a total monster and I cannot live with myself yet alone expect anyone else to.
I'm so exhausted by this disease. It's the main reason I want to die.
It requires so much management just to feel like crap still. I'm so tired
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