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Thunderstorm

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Jun 18, 2025
46
... I'm waiting for the world to end lol
I"m not even kidding.
I almost killed myself back in 2017. I only continued going on because I found faith in God.
Now you will not here any judgements from me.
I'm bisexual, so I would have to begin with myself.
I sin constantly
I struggle with my relationship with God all the time. But it's the only thing keeping me here.
I've been a failure all my life
If God isn't real I truly have no reason to stay
It helps me get through tough times and sometimes it gets too much and I get angry with God.
But I seem to be able to grab on to a small amount of hope each time in the end, to keep going
I know most here are atheist. It seems that way anyway. Been lurking on here for a while.
And I'm not here to preach
But it's litteraly true. It's the only reason I'm here.
Because I'm hoping the world is about to end soon
You know. The end times from the bible
So how crazy I sound on a scale from 1 to 10?
I'm considering getting some SN though. Just in case
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,653
A god that created the universe and cares about us would have no reason to hide.
If such a god existed, its presence would be obvious and undeniable — not dependent on faith, hearsay, or ancient texts.
God is nowhere to be found — not in nature, not in personal experience in any objective way, and not in empirical evidence.
The most reasonable explanation is that no god exists.
We are abandoned because there was never anyone here to begin with.
 
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Thunderstorm

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Jun 18, 2025
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A god that created the universe and cares about us would have no reason to hide.
If such a god existed, its presence would be obvious and undeniable — not dependent on faith, hearsay, or ancient texts.
God is nowhere to be found — not in nature, not in personal experience in any objective way, and not in empirical evidence.
The most reasonable explanation is that no god exists.
We are abandoned because there was never anyone here to begin with.
I'm not really here to debate
And would prefer if the thread didnt evolve into that
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
324
"I'm still here because" I lack the testicular fortitude to CTB.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
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"I'm still here because" I lack the testicular fortitude to CTB.
All of us

My friend ctb yesterday after many failed attempts and wussing out. Take that fwiw
 
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alwaysalone

Experienced
May 14, 2025
260
I'm still here because I have people who care because there are still small happy moments but mostly because I'm a big ol' coward.
 
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concession

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Jun 3, 2025
37
... I'm waiting for the world to end lol
See "Don't Look Up" (2021)
I think you will enjoy it

I kinda like the idea living in an eminent apocalypse among people that are scared of death. That would be a cool experience.
 
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Thunderstorm

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Jun 18, 2025
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See "Don't Look Up" (2021)
I think you will enjoy it

I kinda like the idea living in an eminent apocalypse among people that are scared of death. That would be a cool experience.

In a way many already are. Not just religious people. Maybe not that eminent, but lot of apocalyptic level fear already over climate change, AI, Nuclear war etc

And yeah I get what u saying. Thought of death brings me peace
 
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darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
860
unfortunately,humanity will continue to exist for a very long time
and cause a lot of suffering and misery
 
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TastySorrow

Member
May 18, 2020
57
Honestly idk anymore. I refrained from CTB in late 2020 to work hard on myself, successfully turned my professional life around and got my wife and kids a better life only for her to take them and leave earlier this year because this wellbeing comes at the price of new day-to-day dynamics she's not comfortable with. I'm still hanging around because they need me; call it SI or a social mandate but waking up every morning or coming back from business trips to an empty house is messing with the last bit of sanity in me.
 
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alwaysalone

Experienced
May 14, 2025
260
Honestly idk anymore. I refrained from CTB in late 2020 to work hard on myself, successfully turned my professional life around and got my wife and kids a better life only for her to take them and leave earlier this year because this wellbeing comes at the price of new day-to-day dynamics she's not comfortable with. I'm still hanging around because they need me; call it SI or a social mandate but waking up every morning or coming back from business trips to an empty house is messing with the last bit of sanity in me.
Let me guess she's clingy and didn't like you working more even though you did it so your family could have a better life?
 
StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
758
I'm still here because both of my SN packages were confiscated.;-;
 
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TomokiTensei

New Member
Jun 5, 2025
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A god that created the universe and cares about us would have no reason to hide.
If such a god existed, its presence would be obvious and undeniable — not dependent on faith, hearsay, or ancient texts.
God is nowhere to be found — not in nature, not in personal experience in any objective way, and not in empirical evidence.
The most reasonable explanation is that no god exists.
We are abandoned because there was never anyone here to begin with.
You are applying logic to illogical thing
 
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Thunderstorm

Member
Jun 18, 2025
46
I think I regret making this post a bit. I think I went out of my way to not be preachy. Because that is not at all my intent. Just sharing something thats personal to my story.
I think it's kind of disrespectful to come in here and make my thread about your issues with religion
There's countless threads you can do that in already.
I respect your beliefs (or non beliefs, or whatever you call it)
I would never come into a personal thread of yours and derail it
Sorry. Thats how I feel
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,653
You are applying logic to illogical thing
If a claim can't be tested, demonstrated, or made coherent under scrutiny, then it loses its right to be treated as truth. The burden of proof remains with the claimant — not the skeptic.
 
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EmptyBottle

🔑 Redfern
Apr 10, 2025
618
unfortunately,humanity will continue to exist for a very long time
and cause a lot of suffering and misery
mmm, unless some catastrophe occurs, asteroid impact, combined with 'survivors' getting death wishes due to the extra bleakness, and CTBing... or something more severe that takes the solar system out (gamma ray bursts can sterilise whole planets)
 
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Thunderstorm

Member
Jun 18, 2025
46
Can a mod close the thread?
Thank you
 
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