Venting I am scared :( who cares

[SapoMotoqueiro]

My family care about me, maybe a little too much. i work at the same place as my parents, i am payed for the days i go to work so i can have any day off, my mother dont allow because i can only skip the day if i am really, really bad, so even when i was really tired and my body in pain, it wasnt enough for her to allow. i could lie but i am so scared of doing it.

I am not allowed to go anywhere alone since ever and now i am an adult who dont know how to do things alone, even the basics. if u buy something online they will ask what is, they will ask to see it.

So if i managed to get a day to ctb and fail i will be sooo fucked, all my things will be confiscated, take whatever can hurt/kill from my reach and if they suspect something is a bad influence for me? gone. in resume, i would be punished like a kid.

I need to make it work 200% right. there isnt much i could do besides risking, right?

(If the text dont make sense is because 1- english is not my first language; 2- i am at work)

 

[(Alex)]

The only thing i dont get is what's your motive to ctb? If it's because you dont have many life skills i think you can develop that with time and you can find jobs away from your parents

 

[SapoMotoqueiro]

Bro i just dont want do deal with nothing in life, even the most simple thing. if i could choose i wanted to rot in my bed all my life with no worries

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

I'm already confiscated at a high level too. I wish I was more independent in that regard. If the ppl around me knew that their money is what its funding the thing...

 

[Liseli]

You can slowly start by doing things yourself. You could basically desensitize your own parents. Like start doing tasks for yourself or go on a walk. Step by step. It could give you more freedom. If you keep doing it long enough they'll stop asking questions