I have wanting to ctb for 3 years. I want to fall asleep and not wake up. I don't know what N is. I have stockpiled large amounts of diazepam and propranolol (over 5,000 mg of propranolol ) and about 500 mg of diazepam) I am 59 years old and the last 3 years have been hell due to a bad reaction to an antidepressant. I have tried everything to get better but it's not possible because I am too ill now. Can someone give me some sound advice on how to CTB I am desperate. Thanks
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,712
What I personally plan to do, is to look at the resources sections and plan my chosen method. I think if I knew how to ctb I would already be gone. It really is so difficult to leave this world after all. Once you have a few more posts you can access the search function to search for any information you need. I also want eternal sleep and I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, it sounds so unbearable what you are going through. It really can be so awful when everything is hopeless. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
Many here share this feeling. You are not alone.
No need to convince us that you are in pain. Even so, strangers on the internet cannot plan the rest of your life for you. If you want to, read some of the information our mods have neatly organized for you at the top of this forum.
I hope you find some solace in sharing here.
Judy Garland
HoHum
- Mar 23, 2022
- 826
Welcome, Kingy. I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I've been at this point for years and years. You can find everything here on the forums concerning methods and details of said methods. Good luck, and welcome.
