I always tell myself, the next day

[Wojaczek]

And i will endure that day, i will smile, laugh and make conversation. And the next day i will think about ending it constantly, hating everyone around me, wanting to jump infront of a train or off a building.
Im just not sure what I want in this world

 

[Antigonish]

You're not alone my friend

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Yeah that's the problem of not really living but unable to die. You kind of just drift around pointlessly. This purgatory is a worse fate than actually living or dying. Once you realize suicide is a real option, there is no turning back. You will always consider it an option in the back of your mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is painful. In my case I wish there was no more days, I am so tired of this life.

 

[motel rooms]

Here I am, not quite dead
My body left to rot in a hollow tree
Its branches throwing shadows on the gallows for me
And the next day, and the next, and another day!

 

[TheHatedOne]

I feel it, I'd start the day hopeful, telling myself I'll do this and that, I'll be nice as possible, I'm feeling zen etc. Then shit happens and I go insane basically.

 

[pento]

Once you realize suicide is a real option, there is no turning back. You will always consider it an option in the back of your mind.

Very true.

 

[deflationary]

"From this day on
Until they come to take me
They won't break me
Or grind me down
I'll follow, where the river flows
Until I reach the sea

From this day on
'Til the end of time
I'll count to monitor the flaws
That corrupt and foul my mind
I'll seek to grow
Although, although
Right now I'm real low
So tomorrow
Or perhaps the day after that"