Hypochondria

[Lra888]

Does anyone else here suffer from hypochondria/health anxiety?

I have throughout my entire life. Thought I had cancer in high school so I pretty much gave up on trying. I believe that it comes on when I want to die because of stress/ bad life situations. Sometimes I believe that I've consumed poison or breathed in a lot of cancerous dust. This is all on top of me being extremely depressed and anxious to the point of suicide. Maybe this is just my mind trying to push me to act. This happens every few years and lasts for long periods with me obsessing and isolating myself/becoming a shut in. Seems to be another side of my depression and overall hopelessness.

 

[DeletedUser4739]

Does anyone else here suffer from hypochondria/health anxiety?

I have throughout my entire life. Thought I had cancer in high school so I pretty much gave up on trying. I believe that it comes on when I want to die because of stress/ bad life situations. Sometimes I believe that I've consumed poison or breathed in a lot of cancerous dust. This is all on top of me being extremely depressed and anxious to the point of suicide. Maybe this is just my mind trying to push me to act. This happens every few years and lasts for long periods with me obsessing and isolating myself/becoming a shut in. Seems to be another side of my depression and overall hopelessness.

I may have some of these feelings as well. I've been ill for so long; it's hard to tell what is real, reasonable at times. Although, I'm finding several things are finally being diagnosed in more recent years. The treatment options are lackluster at best though, and I can't access the vast majority of them anyway.

I feel overwhelmed by all that is coming into my mind, as well as what my mind is doing itself. I'm on so many medications for so many things now, who knows what is causing what. With near constant upset and isolation for years on top of all this doesn't help. Yet, I feel I must remove myself to keep me and others more safe.

I hate that you're feeling as you've described. I hate that I can relate to it. It seems to be getting worse, along with so many other things, as I age. Helpless is just how I feel too.

 

[Lra888]

My medication is causing many physical side effects and I can't tell what's "normal" - Many aches and stomache pains. Insomnia & constant worry.

 

[Rollo]

Oh yeah it used to be a big thing for me. Whenether I suspected a symptom I would go into panic, read medical websites, do tests etc. Worrying about side-effects from drugs was a big thing too. Once I remember doc prescribing me doxycycline for prostatitis and I told him I would take it inside a clinic just in case I have anaphylaxis and need resuscitation. Guy was like "I never even saw anyone having a rash from doxycycline". But I was adamant, I was terrified of the very possibility, no matter how slim.

 

[MAC10]

Yes I suffer from this, but it started before I became suicidal.

So it isn't much of a problem now because I want a death sentence in terms of my health.

Well, I get the feeling someone might have poisoned me every now and again but my suicidal thoughts just consume me and I then forget about it and hope some did poison me.

It keeps me living less anxious at the same time being more content with dying.