Doll Steak
Student
- May 31, 2025
- 130
Kind of just a ramble sorry. I'm gonna keep this short.
When I was younger, around 9, I got my first computer. My parents never cared to put any restrictions on it or monitor what I was doing so it was around this time I also saw adult content. It didn't have quite an affect on me at the time cause I didn't even know what was happening but It probably set me up for all the other shit, like getting a porn addiction at 13-14.
At around 12-13 I accidently saw my first gore video, it was a brutal shotgun suicide and it traumatized me for weeks, maybe months. It was always replaying in the back of my head.
Weirdly though, I felt like I couldn't stop watching it, and despite my disgust and trauma from it I sought out more gore content. I had a morbid curiosity for it, in my head I was thinking things like "I have to see all the ways a person can die or get hurt"
I was so mentally fucked and nobody was gonna stop me, and nobody did but also nobody could have.
I never reached out cause I wanted to spare my parents or anyone else the trauma of seeing the videos that I saw, stupid, I know.
When I was younger, around 9, I got my first computer. My parents never cared to put any restrictions on it or monitor what I was doing so it was around this time I also saw adult content. It didn't have quite an affect on me at the time cause I didn't even know what was happening but It probably set me up for all the other shit, like getting a porn addiction at 13-14.
At around 12-13 I accidently saw my first gore video, it was a brutal shotgun suicide and it traumatized me for weeks, maybe months. It was always replaying in the back of my head.
Weirdly though, I felt like I couldn't stop watching it, and despite my disgust and trauma from it I sought out more gore content. I had a morbid curiosity for it, in my head I was thinking things like "I have to see all the ways a person can die or get hurt"
I was so mentally fucked and nobody was gonna stop me, and nobody did but also nobody could have.
I never reached out cause I wanted to spare my parents or anyone else the trauma of seeing the videos that I saw, stupid, I know.
