How old are you?

[Whiskeyjames]

How old are you when you start intense ctb rush?
For me it started when I was 25

 

[Vilthuril]

If you mean when did I start having a preoccupation with this, it was around age 13.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Since the age of about 10.

 

[Eren]

I started having suicidal thoughts with 17/18 years, I was in psychiatric treatment for a while, I was even in the hospital for a while, but it seems that it did not help much, soon I met a girl that was my girlfriend for a while. Soon I ruined everything, as always.

I am very lonely and I always ruin everything when someone approaches me, at least that's how I feel, now I'm 24 years old, I do not think my situation is going to change, the other way around, more and more obvious that I'm not normal.

 

[Armadillo]

I'm 19. Been having suicidal thoughts since I was 16.

 

[Norest4thewicked]

I was 14. Had my first breakdown at 19. I'm 51 now.

 

[Inevitable]

Since I was born starting thinking about plans around 6

 

[21Neberg]

I was 14 when I first experienced this lasting desire to die - and I seeked help. How foolish of me, knowing my desire to die is back stronger than ever four years later.

 

[SelfishMom]

Last year is when it started for me, when I was 26.

 

[Whiskeyjames]

Welcome to the generation of mind fucked... if I was born into a third world country I would already be working my ass off to support my family instead of thinking about this... They say technologies are double edge sword and hell yeah it is...

 

[Sixfeetunder]

21. Since about 12 or 13.

 

[wanttodie]

when was about
32-36 and im 55 know

 

[Whiskeyjames]

when was about
32-36 and im 55 know

Oh man for over 20 years that must be tough...if you are still here that means you are a very responsible person!! Respect!

 

[Kyrok]

I remember threatening suicide around the age of 10. Wrote a will even. 40+ yrs ago.

 

[Fgogrl]

Since high school; I'm pushing 40 now. I wasn't diagnosed with depression and anxiety until I got health insurance at 25. I've tried pretty much every single antidepressant on the market. Frustrating not knowing how they are supposed to be improving my mood. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in the placebo control study group.

 

[stellabelle]

I was younger than twelve when it all started. I grew up in a bad situation. I'm 25 now and still want to die.

 

[kkatt]

First attempt was aged 13.
Gonna be 50 this year. YES!! 50!!!
I think it's wrong and someone's doctored my papers.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I feel bad clicking a 'like' button to a post where someone has first felt suicidal from a young age and are now 20/30/40/50 but in 'liking' I mean more, "for the first time there are people who know how I feel and know what it's like to be 6, 8, 10 and have wanted to die then and still be struggling now. Thank youxxx"

 

[HelensNepenthe]

Attempted at the age of 12 with a dog leash that broke. Attempted again earlier this year. I'm 20. Turning 21 soon.

 

[daemonblight]

As long as I can remember

 

[Druvian]

I'm 29 and I've had suicidal idealation since I was about 11

 

[Alpo78]

I was 19 when I first thought about it. I'm 40 now and it's there stronger than ever.

 

[Revenge]

Suicide has always been on my mind since early ages (11ish) because I had a really toubled household and childhood. I just thought about it but never had the will to do anything.

Until recently (20yo, September last year) I started really getting into it and actually thinking of doing something. It's getting worse and worse by the day. I know the next day when I wake up my will to kill myself will be even stronger than today. I am 21yo currently.

 

[brighter]

17 now, been wanting to ctb since 12 I think

 

[Skathon]

Since I was eight, as I recall.
An alocoholic/drug addict since 13, regularly add new scars (or reopen the old ones) since 14.

 

[throwaway777]

21 ... since 13

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I've been obsessed with dying and wanting to die since I was super young. I don't remember a time when I wasn't, but let's just say 5 becaus I don't remember much before then. I only started thinking about actually ending my life a few years later when I was like 8 or 9 ish.

 

[Madame Psychosis]

I remember considering suicide at a young age, probably around eight years old. I'd lie in bed at night fantasizing about stabbing myself in the chest with a kitchen knife while my parents were asleep. If only it were so easy to ctb with household objects. Ha.