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Christina

Christina

Member
Dec 6, 2018
17
Lately I haven't been sleeping at all. My mind is so restless and I just stare at the ceiling for hours trying to think of way to ctb or even fantisizing about it. I start panicing about the chance of faliure with CTB and having to continuewith life. Suicide is constantly in my mind. I cant sleep , eat or work properly because I'm always thinking about CTB. I have gone through a days without getting any sleep and it fucks me when I have to go out.
 
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SadHoe

SadHoe

Member
Nov 11, 2018
43
Last semester I would get about 4 hours each night, and I could only sleep bc I was tired (4:30 hours of working out each day) but this, at first I could sleep the whole weekend and during weekdays, all evening. But now I "sleep" 8 hours but I'm waking up every 40 minutes or so.
 
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GhostedToast

GhostedToast

Wants to disappear
Sep 25, 2018
147
1-3 Monday-friday and usually 6 on werkends occasionally 12 if im not too restless
 
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stargazer

Arcanist
Nov 19, 2018
433
Usually 8 or 9 hours.
I'm under-employed/unemployed, so there's few committments in my life. Helps schedule the eventual CTB quite nicely unless something happens, which will be unwelcomed.
It's quite a comfortable sleep pattern I have right now: I hate when I work nights.
 
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Tyuiop

Student
Nov 25, 2018
155
I sleep about 10-12 hours each night. I like sleeping, so I take quetiapine to knock me out. Sometimes I wake up in middle of the night, but then I just smoke and fall asleep again.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,074
I have serious sleeping problems, it is rare when I can sleep 8 hours straight, some nights I can not sleep or 5 minutes, it is horrible, I usually sleep 4-5 hours
 
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YukiFox

YukiFox

Pastel demon
Dec 8, 2018
320
I sleep about 5 to 6 hours. If I sleep more than that, I feel pissed off, angry or furious. Generally 1-2 am up to 7 - 8 am.
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2018
1,450
A solid 6 hrs is amazing for me. Often I don't sleep at all or for an hour or two. If I'm drinking I can quiet my mind and sleep for a few dreamless hours, which is bliss.
 
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LiveSlowDieFast

LiveSlowDieFast

Specialist
Nov 14, 2018
339
It ranges between 3-8. I try to keep a sleep schedule, but I don't feel it has helped much so far.
 
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Anima

Student
Dec 5, 2018
155
Depends, between no sleep and 3 to 4 hours. Always tired. Can't remember what it feels like to be well rested and full of energy.
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
I barely sleep at all also. When I started feeling seriously bad and came to the point where I knew ctb was the only way out I stopped sleeping completely. That was over 2 months ago. Then I got strong sleeping medication from my psychiatrist which at first gave me a good nights sleep (though I still felt the same) but gradually stopped working. Now even with the meds I toss and turn all night and my brain only shuts down for short intervals out of exhaustion because I remember flashes of dreams. I am literally dizzy most of the time from lack of sleep. But my mind is a demon and will not let me rest. Until death...
 
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Jodes

Jodes

Enlightened
Nov 23, 2018
1,261
Changes wildly
 
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Watson

Watson

Wats-on your mind?
Nov 28, 2018
165
My sleep is almost non existent.
I have too many thoughts and I've given up on trying to sleep.

I sleep about 2-3 hours a night.
I fall asleep around 6:30am - 7am and have to get up by 9am for work.

On the weekends I get get about 2-4 hours and sometimes take naps to catch up on sleep.
 
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DKs

DKs

Member
Oct 14, 2018
58
6-8 hours a night.
 
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nohoper

Member
Dec 2, 2018
64
I usually go a few days with minimum sleep maybe a couple of hours, eventually it catches up with me and i have no choice but too sleep good for a day or two then its back to the 2 hours routine.
 
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lost illusions

lost illusions

bye
Sep 12, 2018
548
2-6 hours
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,506
Insomnia has hit me hard. I'm lucky to get about 5 hours' sleep. The problem is that I'm a night owl, so I'm up half the night and then want to sleep all day.
 
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sadsoul

sadsoul

Alive and unwell
Sep 9, 2018
440
Insomnia has hit me hard. I'm lucky to get about 5 hours' sleep. The problem is that I'm a night owl, so I'm up half the night and then want to sleep all day.
I know the problem with being a night owl, I always stay up late even though I have school the next day which means that most of the time I only get 2-6 hours of sleep :/
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,506
I know the problem with being a night owl, I always stay up late even though I have school the next day which means that most of the time I only get 2-6 hours of sleep :/
That really sucks. :( I'm glad I don't need to get up early any more.
 
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Lautreamont

Member
Dec 16, 2018
17
8-10 i want to sleep less :(( its too much i guess
 
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iHeartRockArt

iHeartRockArt

Wizard
Sep 21, 2018
608
I get maybe 4-5 hours a night. 6 if I am REALLY lucky. It's been years since I have gotten a solid 8. The last time I really got some awesome sleep was in 2012 when I came home from the hospital after being in ICU for 2 weeks. I was in a bad car accident. I was so exhausted from all the blood tests, and being woke up every couple hours...I just crashed. I slept 13 hours that night.
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
Havent sleep since last night and I am already a bit delirious hahaha well usually I got like 4/6 hours.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Varies wildly ... From 2 to 15hrs+ all depends if it it's a workday or weekend or whatever it was that i was up to that night.

Sleep is the closest i can get to being dead.
 
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Zaynaldeen

Zaynaldeen

blackpilled subhuman manlet
Oct 18, 2018
110
Varies wildly ... From 2 to 15hrs+ all depends if it it's a workday or weekend or whatever it was that i was up to that night.

Sleep is the closest i can get to being dead.
Same here, though not as extreme. For me it ranges from 5 to 12 hours, on Tuesday school starts early for me so I have to wake up early so I sleep about 5-6 hours then. On other days it's usually about 8 hours and in the weekend it's about 10-12 hours.
 
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