Help how loud are the sounds with sn? and some other questions

[vultureilse]

im kinda considering doing while not being home alone (while others are asleep) but im scared the noises will be a problem. how loud is the gasping and groaning and the death rattle and all that after unconsciousness? ig its different for everyone but how big is the chance of them being loud enough to wake up someone in a different room? would it help to muffle the sounds if i put some rolled up fabric in my mouth before passing out? or taped my mouth or put a blanket over my head or something like that

also how big is the chance of vomiting after passing out? if i threw up while unconscious would that cause me to fail or would my body absorb enough sn to die at that point?

 

[littlelady774]

I doubt it would be loud enough to wake someone up. Make sure you're not up walking around so you don't knock stuff over when passing out

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It could be traumatic for whoever you live with to unexpectedly find your dead body in their home but I understand if that's not a deterrent for you in your desperation. I have a similar problem myself, not having a private and comfortable place of my own to die in. Thinking about that makes me even more suicidal.

It's really saddening to see you suffering so much you want to end your life at 18. Is there really no other path you can see for yourself? Do you think you have lived and experienced enough to make an informed decision to end your life at 18?

Sorry if that's annoying. You don't owe anyone any answers but given the current climate here especially I'm going to be a little annoying in cases like yours.

 

[thethatsitboy]

I too doubt it would be loud enough

 

[tieiwi]

I failed an SN attempt last year. I took it at night when everyone else was sleeping. I started vomiting it all up around 3 AM(?) for four hours straight and I didn't wake anyone up. Obviously I didn't die so I can't tell you if there is any noise from the death rattle. But otherwise I was able to do all of that without raising any concern. I honestly think it's different with every household. If you vomit you fail. I don't think you will vomit in your sleep. The nausea is very strong that either you won't be able to go to sleep or it will wake you up from your sleep. I'm telling you that nausea is not like your typical nausea. My body is traumatized from vomiting for four hours straight that I can't even think about the taste or smell of SN. Of course you might experience different symptoms than me but that's what I experienced. I didn't take any medicine to prevent vomiting so I wonder if that would've helped. I do believe that part of why I failed is because I vomited it all up. I don't want to discourage you but just please plan accordingly.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I failed an SN attempt last year. I took it at night when everyone else was sleeping. I started vomiting it all up around 3 AM(?) for four hours straight and I didn't wake anyone up. Obviously I didn't die so I can't tell you if there is any noise from the death rattle. But otherwise I was able to do all of that without raising any concern. I honestly think it's different with every household. If you vomit you fail. I don't think you will vomit in your sleep. The nausea is very strong that either you won't be able to go to sleep or it will wake you up from your sleep. I'm telling you that nausea is not like your typical nausea. My body is traumatized from vomiting for four hours straight that I can't even think about the taste or smell of SN. Of course you might experience different symptoms than me but that's what I experienced. I didn't take any medicine to prevent vomiting so I wonder if that would've helped. I do believe that part of why I failed is because I vomited it all up. I don't want to discourage you but just please plan accordingly.

How much did you drink that made you vomit so violently?

 

[vultureilse]

It could be traumatic for whoever you live with to unexpectedly find your dead body in their home but I understand if that's not a deterrent for you in your desperation. I have a similar problem myself, not having a private and comfortable place of my own to die in. Thinking about that makes me even more suicidal.

It's really saddening to see you suffering so much you want to end your life at 18. Is there really no other path you can see for yourself? Do you think you have lived and experienced enough to make an informed decision to end your life at 18?

Sorry if that's annoying. You don't owe anyone any answers but given the current climate here especially I'm going to be a little annoying in cases like yours.

yeah im sure. ive experienced a lot in my life, there have been happy moments but ultimately the bad things really outweigh the good ones. even if my life and mental state were to ever improve i just dont find life worth living. i did try recovery in the past but all it did in the end was make me even more sure that dying is the best choice for me

its not annoying though i definitely understand why youd want to make sure

 

[Interloper]

This is also something that's different between individuals. Some can remain quiet, others, like me, not so much. You know your body's reactions much better than any of us do.

(My vomiting especially, I've stood next to exactly one other person as they threw up after heavy drinking and they made barely any sounds except for the vomit hitting the toilet water. I wake up the entire house when I vomit.)

 

[tieiwi]

How much did you drink that made you vomit so violently?

I think 10grams or less, I eyeballed the amount and it wasn't much.