How hard is it to attempt?

[lotus11]

This is a message to anyone who's actually genuinely attempted before but somehow is still here. Or people that really tried but when it came down to the last moment just couldnt manage to do it.

How difficult is it to break the SI barrier and actually do it? Do you think there is any advice mentally or physically that you could give to get through the last moment and finally do it?

 

[gothbird]

I've overdosed multiple times. I've tried to bleed out. I've woken up in hospital with nothing left but the shame of failure and the ache of still being here. So I'll be blunt.

Breaking the survival instinct doesn't happen like a light switch. Your body will beg to live even when your mind is absolutely certain it wants to die. That's the biology. Your heart races, your hands shake, your vision narrows. Everything feels like it's closing in, because it is. And unless you've faced it head on and I mean really stared it down with the final dose in your hand or your wrists open and bleeding, you can't fully grasp how primal it is. That last moment is a wall made of nerves and instinct and everything your body is hardwired to protect.

What helped me get closest? Precision. Control. Knowing every step in advance. Practising. Accepting that fear will come but not letting it dictate the outcome. Taking benzos to mute the panic helps. Having no second guessing—just action. But more than anything: not giving yourself the chance to delay. SI loses its power when there's nothing left to stop for.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I've never really attempted but I hit rock bottom around the time when I made my account here. Instead of just proceeding with my plan (CO with charcoal), sealing the room, lighting the charcoal, I searched for a "suicide community" although I had the best chances to just go ahead with my plan and be done with that ... well, here I am.

 

[HereWeGo!]

It's really really hard. That's probably why the most of us are still here. As @gothbird said wisely...there are no "light switch" to push.

 

[sximii]

I've attempted so many times, landed in psychiatric hospitals for it several times as well. What helped me is to make it quick. The adrenaline is there, and that's partially what pushes me to do it. It can sound hard, but for me when I was in the moment, just kind of forcing my body to do it was what helped. That's why I prefer my method to be one quick, irreversible action (like drinking SN)

 

[lovestained]

i think the best choice is to do something that doesn't Allow the SI to take over . personally im looking forward to hanging since i know i'll panic But there's nothing i can do once im up there .. of course Not telling you to do this .. do what you want .. but thats just my personal opinion

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

There's a very serious difference between trying and doing it:
1. Trying = fear + SI
2. Doing it = acting without fear and that's the end of SI
Attempts lead more to failure, planning to success.

 

[Forveleth]

What helped me get closest? Precision. Control. Knowing every step in advance. Practising. Accepting that fear will come but not letting it dictate the outcome.

This is all the way for me. Whenever people ask for SI advice, I always tell them to thoroughly research their method, practice it if they can, know how it works and why it works. Turn it into something boring and routine.

Another thing that helped me was just researching death in general. I watched videos of people dying peacefully. I researched how the body shuts down. I learned what happens when you die. I listened to accounts of near-death experiences. Surrounding myself with death took away the stigma, and it made me realize that death is another state of being, just like living. We see it as the end, but it's just the other side of the same coin. Death is the natural, inevitable end to life. It is going to happen at some point, so why fear it?

As gothbird said, there will be some fear involved as your instincts will kick in. However, if you can get your forebrain to be ready for death, it can do a lot to override your SI.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

You get to a point where you don't care if it hurts and all survival instincts are tossed out the window.

I've overdosed and flatlined in the hospital and I've overdosed and flatlined at my own home and I've bled out because of cutting.
You just have to believe there is no reason to go back to the life you have.
It's difficult waking up after a attempt and knowing you failed only to try again as soon as you get released.