How do i stop being a coward?

[ratfucker22]

long story short i was definitely feeling like its over wed night but i couldnt make it past 5 seconds, and afterwards the left side of my neck felt in a way i cant describe. then i washed my face and went to sleep.

how do i stop being a coward? i know its ONLY 20 seconds of agony and panic to end a lifetime of suffering, but i couldnt stand even 5 seconds.

perhaps i just need to use another method, but anyways i want to ahve tthe coureage to end it when i obtain said new method

so, how do i stop being a coward?

 

[Ben]

You are not a coward at all. The amount of strength it takes to even make an attempt shows you that. I've said this before, but your strengths are battling each other, the will to live vs the will to die. There is nothing cowardly about preparing to end your life, and there is nothing cowardly about having a survival instinct.

 

[BjartNO]

If I do hanging im going to use a lot of benzos in conjunction with it

 

[Deutschv2]

alcohol. if not then try a method like CO. entering a car full of carbon monoxide is easier than hanging. idk why, it just is (atleast For me)

 

[Arak]

Hanging/suspension ? Survival instinct, human nature. Don't blame yourself for that. Find another way. To live or die.

God, I sound like resident counselor.