How do I intentionally get a terminal illness?

[Rsuicidal]

Yes I am getting desperate. Money is awful I am leaving soon for a place I will be stuck in for quite a while and all my methods have failed all ods and hanging and dehydration. I know I cannot overcome myself to do something like jump and travel isnt possible. Im really really becoming desperate with ways out after years and years of failed attempts and failed healing failed pills all of it.
I need out and I am serious how can I make myself terminal and yes Ive tried breaking into needle boxes they are locked up where I am fuck.

 

[Minudah]

Why not SN, partial hanging, or night night method? The only terminal illnesses I know of that you can reliably give to yourself take many many many years to kill in most cases, and it's horrendous suffering all the way through.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Wow... you sure about that. Terminal illness isn't exactly the most peaceful way to go...
And its gonna take too long.
NOT a good idea.

 

[Rsuicidal]

Why not SN, partial hanging, or night night method? The only terminal illnesses I know of that you can reliably give to yourself take many many many years to kill in most cases, and it's horrendous suffering all the way through.

Sn requires anti e which I cannot access, even if I took the risk and spent the low money I am running out of time to execute before being trapped in a long term facility
If I had a terminal illness I would know for sure I had an end rather than the random chance of life where I may have decades upon decades.
If I fail partial or night night I will have marks to explain. Ive no where to support my weight where I am and am

 

[Minudah]

Sn requires anti e which I cannot access, even if I took the risk and spent the low money I am running out of time to execute before being trapped in a long term facility
If I had a terminal illness I would know for sure I had an end rather than the random chance of life where I may have decades upon decades

You can get antiemetics from eBay and Bonanza, they're cheap enough. The Bonanza one was $20 and I think the eBay one was a little more expensive.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I need out and I am serious how can I make myself terminal and yes Ive tried breaking into needle boxes they are locked up where I am fuck.

I bet a lot of us empathize with your desperation. If you were in the US, you could just be someone the police don't like and/or act in a way they find sufficiently insulting. Or you could, again in the US, be homeless. Exposure, human-on-human predation, or the police (more and more US communities have made it tantamount to illegal to be homeless) might do the job.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

 

[Rsuicidal]

You can get antiemetics from eBay and Bonanza, they're cheap enough. The Bonanza one was $20 and I think the eBay one was a little more expensive.

Right, neither of those are an option in my situation right now, I would have to wait over a month to order, wait for delivery, and whatever diety will laugh as they sit at the po with no one to pick them up as I am in long term in another place. Or even worse my partner gets the package and flips on me.

 

[Minudah]

Right, neither of those are an option in my situation right now, I would have to wait over a month to order, wait for delivery, and whatever diety will laugh as they sit at the po with no one to pick them up as I am in long term in another place. Or even worse my partner gets the package and flips on me.

What country are you in? I got the Bonanza one in about a week. Even if it took a month that's still a lot faster than a terminal illness, which tend to take years at best. If you really don't want to wait then there's DMSO which is readily available at the store pretty much everywhere, which is inferior to antiemetics but a lot better than a terminal illness.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yes I am getting desperate. Money is awful I am leaving soon for a place I will be stuck in for quite a while and all my methods have failed all ods and hanging and dehydration. I know I cannot overcome myself to do something like jump and travel isnt possible. Im really really becoming desperate with ways out after years and years of failed attempts and failed healing failed pills all of it.
I need out and I am serious how can I make myself terminal and yes Ive tried breaking into needle boxes they are locked up where I am fuck.

Sounds like a terrible idea. SN all the way. It's cheap and relatively painless. One can get anti-emetics from alldaychemist.com