How do I gain the energy to go thru with it?

[ZoloftSüchtig]

I basically have no energy. No energy and Hanging takes soo much energy. Is there anything I can take that gives me the energy to go thru with it finally? I'm just soooo tired. I wanna sleep and sleep and sleep. I wish I had a gun I could just shoot myself in the head with while laying in my comfortable bed but I don't have that option. I gotta go by hanging but I just can't seem to get that energy to do it.