How did you dream life would be , before your problems started?

[Parnate]

I dreamt of getting good education, good wealth. Also I dreamt my family would become normal the abuse would stop. I was an idealist and a daydreamer so I believed that everything will be fine in the end. But it wasn't

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself is the problem to me, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and is all I could hope for.

I always suffer so much as a result of this existence that was so tragically imposed that just caused all this suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I find it so horrible how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age, all I want is to be permanently unconscious with all gone and forgotten, I wish I could erase this existence.

 

[wh0arewe123]

I thought people would be more kinder because children learn morals from others and laws exist. I learned that if people can get away with it that rule no longer exists in a social way.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

I dreamt of getting good education, good wealth. Also I dreamt my family would become normal the abuse would stop. I was an idealist and a daydreamer so I believed that everything will be fine in the end. But it wasn't

Same. I dreamt of falling in love again, of endless curiosity and wonder, of success and fortune, etc.

In fact things would get worse than I could imagine. A living nightmare.

 

[indianachrome]

I was set up for peace and enjoyment. My settlement would provide ample cash for trips, was able to work 5 months a year self employed and make alot of money. I was supposed to stay a minimalist, but enjoy not having to stress about day to day life. I was supposed to enjoy my beautiful girlfriend and travel the world with her. Then everything changed. September 5th i had a freak injury and can't work and no cash plus debilitating pain every day from injury.

why? Is this my struggle? To rot in bed all day?! I didn't sign up for this....

 

[broken_stoic]

There really wasn't a before for me. I suppose there was a "before" this current shitshow that is my life. I guess despite all my crap I thought I knew how to make a good life and I thought I was headed in the right direction. I was pretty isolated, but was where I wanted to be and wanted to stay there. I was hoping to go back to school, buy a house, and do something more meaningful with my life. Now it's looking more and more likely I either check out or become homeless at some point, so you know . . . life can be a bitch. And abusive bitch that won't let you go.

 

[Bowerbird]

If I wasnt even born in the first place. My genes are faulty. I was screwed the moment I was brought into this world. There's a good chance I inherited some form of bipolar, or something, I have these rapid mood swings since the age of 14 that seem to get worse over the years and it, along with other mental illness/neurodivergence runs rampant in my bloodline.

 

[Defenestration]

My problem is my birthday....

 

[Lady_V]

There was never a before shit went wrong, just a before I started processing how fucked up everything was.
I wanted to be a mommy. Be with a kind and gentle partner. Have a modest house and a career.
Just be normal.

 

[FoxSauce]

I dont think theres anything I couldve done. I tried in the past but nothing.

But life doesnt work like that.

I hope in the future things could be better.

 

[miles-away]

I'd probably need to be born into a non-autistic, non-white trash family.

 

[SeaGlass]

Before I got my disability diagnosis, I had a simple plan, join the army,in Poland there is a lot of benefits,and the money is good. In our country women in uniform are celebrated.
Then life hit me over the head with a hammer, so I switched to art. But I didn't know that my disability would take that too.
So it was die a solider then die an artist.
Now it's die a loser lmao.
May our next lives be kind and filled with love.

 

[Defenestration]

Si seulement je n'étais jamais né. Mes gènes sont défectueux. J'étais fichu dès ma naissance. Il y a de fortes chances que j'aie hérité d'une forme de bipolarité, ou quelque chose du genre. J'ai des sautes d'humeur rapides depuis l'âge de 14 ans, qui semblent s'aggraver avec les années, et cela, ainsi que d'autres troubles mentaux et neurodivergences, est très fréquent dans ma famille.

Te same genetic ( cf parents)