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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
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I often find myself asking how things can possibly get worse and then over time.. they do. In ways I really couldn't have imagined. I want to die so fucking bad right now. I am amazed that even with things so bad I still cannot do it. I feel like I'm in a waking nightmare. Does anyone feel the same?
 
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jing

Slowly discovering my place here in this world.
Oct 9, 2020
35
Things can always get worse and we have new ways of digging new rock bottoms.

Me: Oh I guess I've reached rock bottom. Things couldn't get any worse than the hell I'm in now

New rock bottom: Surprise!
 
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_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
825
When I find myself at my worst, I think the same way. Life tends to have some sort of a sadistic sense of humor. You desperately climb out of the well that is your feelings, only to be kicked back down by some sort of BS after you reach the top. I myself find that I'm becoming so tired of it all. And yet, whenever I do calm down from my sorrow and/or wrath, another reason comes to slap me in the face.

So, at least for me, I've begun to accept the cycle finally. Self-loathing to say this, perhaps, but I'm realizing that life is trying to tell me to stop trying. Why bother when you try to make any improvements to your life, only for something to swoop in and make you think it was all for naught? The cycle is cruel. The cycle is tiresome. I wish I could cope with this reality like some people. Bury it all away and make reasons as to why your life isn't so bad.

But perhaps I'm just ungrateful......
 
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Deleted member 19654

Deleted member 19654

Working towards recovery.
Jul 9, 2020
1,627
It's why I hate those inspirational quotes about hitting rock bottom. "When you've hit rock bottom, the only place you can go is up."
 
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Buffy5120

Death is vital
Mar 19, 2020
614
I often find myself asking how things can possibly get worse and then over time.. they do. In ways I really couldn't have imagined. I want to die so fucking bad right now. I am amazed that even with things so bad I still cannot do it. I feel like I'm in a waking nightmare. Does anyone feel the same?
Literally is happening to me now my eyes are messing up
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,407
It can always get worse except maybe if you have a terminal illness. Even then, asking "what could possibly go wrong?" is such an easy way to immediately force things to go wrong. At least for me it is......
 
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XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
It's why I hate those inspirational quotes about hitting rock bottom. "When you've hit rock bottom, the only place you can go is up."

I hate that quote, having personally waved rock bottom bye bye as I passed it on my own way down to new, lower depths of despair.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
I won't repeat that phrase about things getting w**se. It seems like tempting Fate!
 
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XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
I won't repeat that phrase about things getting w**se. It seems like tempting Fate!

Fate doesn't need tempting. It's a fickle devil ready to fuck you over anytime:mmm:
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
As a person that actually made her life permanently, irreparably worse by attempting to CTB because life didn't feel worth living, man do I know this feeling.
 
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