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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

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Nov 9, 2023
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In the event i will ctb, i will need my note to be publicly known in town. My mom has taken my life away, while she gaslights herself being a perfect mom. I want to ctb in my room so she can find me, but if i leave my note in the room i am 100% sure she will hide it, just so she can play the role of a poor single mother who lost her child. She lives of validations by others, and I dont want that. I want everyone to know what kind of mother she actually is. I want everyone to know she caused this.
Any ideas?
 
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TheHolySword

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Nov 22, 2024
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Post a video to youtube of you reading it out loud. Share the link to people you know. If you have social media you could post it there too. You could try submitting it to your local newspaper but it's extremely unlikely they would post something like that (also most people don't read the paper anymore).
 
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needthebus

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what specifically does she do?
 
justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

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Nov 9, 2023
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Post a video to youtube of you reading it out loud. Share the link to people you know. If you have social media you could post it there too. You could try submitting it to your local newspaper but it's extremely unlikely they would post something like that (also most people don't read the paper anymore).
I guess most i can do is post it on my IG and hope it reaches the neighbours. thanks

what specifically does she do?
Long story short: lots of manipulation and gaslighting to mold me into a human i am not. Even got my sister helping her. once i finally broke free from her some years ago she despises me and makes my life unbearable and I cant move out
 
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ceilng_tile

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Jan 13, 2024
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There is probably a way to send a timed email or blog post so that it appears shortly after you ctb. I've also heard of people giving letters to the post office to be delivered on a certain date.
 
dexdbxtchthewxtch

dexdbxtchthewxtch

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Dec 31, 2024
66
Post a video to youtube of you reading it out loud. Share the link to people you know. If you have social media you could post it there too. You could try submitting it to your local newspaper but it's extremely unlikely they would post something like that (also most people don't read the paper anymore).
This! Any type of public social media would spread a video like that like wildfire. I know you seem certain, and we don't know your whole story, but just be mindful that this type of move has consequences.

On one hand, you'd be securing your public story about your mother, on the other, you won't be around to defend yourself if she somehow twists this into her being a victim of a vindictive child.

Anything revolving around suicide, in a social media setting, regardless if it's a public note, a video or photo, will end up in the hands of places like bestgore. So you're also taking into consideration your OWN legacy and if you want to be apart of that.

But all things aside, posting a note to any sort of social media (making sure the post itself is listed as public) and pointing fingers at your mother may just destroy her life if she can't twist it! Given cancel culture, if it comes out like this, she will likely loose any credibility and good standing in any jobs, social circles, churches, etc. Potentially targeted online and in person.

There's a lot to consider but it is ultimately a choice only you can make! It all depends on your story up until now and how you'd like it to end.

🫂🖤 Much love, friend.
 
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outofbounds

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There is probably a way to send a timed email or blog post so that it appears shortly after you ctb. I've also heard of people giving letters to the post office to be delivered on a certain date.
If you wanted to make sure the letter didn't come out before you CTB, these would be the best bets, or just posting it in your nearest mailbox right before you do it. Email would be easier to cancel in case SI kicks in and you can't go through.

That said, your mother likely still will be able to play the sad mother card, as, unfortunately, many people will see your letter as the ravings of a lunatic in light of your CTB.
 
LURKMOAR

LURKMOAR

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Nov 22, 2024
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If you're going to put the note on social media, host it on a paste service like Pastebin and include a link to it so that, even if it gets taken down by Instagram moderators or whatever, the paste will still exist. Just note that pastes ARE permanent if you author it anonymously (without an account), so just be sure that you're not sharing anything that you don't want to be shared before you upload your note to the site.
 
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dweams

dweams

i feel tired…maybe I’ll get wings
Feb 26, 2023
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Just note that pastes ARE permanent if you author it anonymously
Don't know much about Pastebin, but Rentry.co uses edit codes for their pages. Just make sure you don't forget your edit code and you should be fine.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
You might be taking a pretty big risk if your attempt to CTB fails and your bombshell note still goes out. It would be ideal if you could have someone send it for you after they confirm you CTB. If that's not possible, you could send it on a timer with a long pause so you had time to cancel it in case you ended up in the hospital.

Maybe I'm being overly cautious, but I was an engineer for 15 years and I've learned that if there's one thing that's true in life, it's Murphy's Law: Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.
 
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AuroraB

AuroraB

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Oct 20, 2024
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My friend CTB in a public place with a note explaining everything. Police found it on his body.
 
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Queen B

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Nov 24, 2024
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In the event i will ctb, i will need my note to be publicly known in town.
Make a Google public doc and write your note there after that create a facebook scheduled posts with the doc link.
 
justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

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Nov 9, 2023
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Thanks for the answers everyone. After some thought the best thing i can do is put the note in my bra or something. i dont have the social media connections to have the town know so its unrealistic. And maybe its not the best idea to cause more chaos in my already unstable family
 
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L9my

L9my

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Nov 22, 2024
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Post a video to youtube of you reading it out loud. Share the link to people you know. If you have social media you could post it there too. You could try submitting it to your local newspaper but it's extremely unlikely they would post something like that (also most people don't read the paper anymore).
seconding this,
also save it to the internet archive, or any archives you know of so it can't get taken down by youtube
dailymotion aswell i guess
 

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