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UntitledUser

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What changes are you making in your life before ctb? Do you want to accomplish something before like a bucket list? Or you are simply waiting or getting stuff to CTB (e.g. SN)?

For example, I'm working to pay my debts before leaving. I want to read some books and watch some movies from my list. I also started to eliminate my trace on social media like TikTok, IG, and Facebook. But I don't know if I want to hang out for the last time with my sister, my dad or my best friends.
 
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gayboy300

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I want to clean my room before I go. I'm planning to disappear before I ctb, and I don't want my parents to have to go through the burden of cleaning my room once they get the news. I also don't want them to see how I've been living (depression room 😬) and I don't want them to learn any more about me than they already know, so I'll be finding something to do with my journals and maybe wiping my drives on all of my devices just in case they or the police try to get into them.

Why bother with paying debts before you ctb? I thought they just kinda disappear once your creditors get notice of your death.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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Why bother with paying debts before you ctb? I thought they just kinda disappear once your creditors get notice of your death.
Your debt doesn't disappear once you're dead. Debt is inheritable and the heirs have to pay the debt if you cannot pay it back from your assets you're leaving behind. If the heirs already know they'd inherit debt it's better for them to reject the inheritance. If there's nothing to get the debt will have to be written off by the creditors. (local laws apply in such cases!)
 
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i think i'm really fucking empty at this point, as i don't wish to do anything.. like i just thought about this deeply now, and there is nothing. i have zero interests, no desires, nothing
wow :(
 
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UntitledUser

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Jan 8, 2024
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I want to clean my room before I go. I'm planning to disappear before I ctb, and I don't want my parents to have to go through the burden of cleaning my room once they get the news. I also don't want them to see how I've been living (depression room 😬) and I don't want them to learn any more about me than they already know, so I'll be finding something to do with my journals and maybe wiping my drives on all of my devices just in case they or the police try to get into them.

Cleaning my room is smith that I did not consider but I should do it too. In my case they know about my depression but just like you, I don't want them to find anything or read my journals which would make me uncomfortable...but after ctb, nothing really matters isn't it?
Why bother with paying debts before you ctb? I thought they just kinda disappear once your creditors get notice of your death.

Your debt doesn't disappear once you're dead. Debt is inheritable and the heirs have to pay the debt if you cannot pay it back from your assets you're leaving behind. If the heirs already know they'd inherit debt it's better for them to reject the inheritance. If there's nothing to get the debt will have to be written off by the creditors. (local laws apply in such cases!)

It's true. Sadly financial matters can't disappear. Debts are the reason I prolonged my life because they can reassure my existence even when I'm dead. Reading the contracts of some of my credits I realized the f's can demand a pay from my father or my sister. Of course, just like Praestat_Mori said it vary across jurisdictions.
i think i'm really fucking empty at this point, as i don't wish to do anything.. like i just thought about this deeply now, and there is nothing. i have zero interests, no desires, nothing
wow :(

It's ok. Most of the time I feel the same. Sometimes I can't leave my bed and on weekends I spend time just staring at the ceiling. It's hard to do chores or hobbies. And that days I don't want to do anything to prepare before I go. There are days I can't even talk. On that days I wish to disappear more than ever, silently.
 
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