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iitssam

iitssam

Zest jester
Mar 27, 2026
4
I genuinely will never understand how people cope with this. I understand a lot of people are depressed while working, but how does it not make you violently suicidal?

I had a job about a year and a half ago, barely worked there three months before quitting. I don't want to go back to school, because I just don't want a job.

Death truly is the only way out, unless you're born into an uber rich family. I'm insanely miserable, even though I don't have a job. Life in general sucks and I just don't want to be here at all.
 
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Prime0

Member
May 16, 2023
62
Same. If you want to be "independent" and live in a "nicer" place you still have to work, or else you are gonna be dependent on your parents, but then you are gonna be dependent on your job too. What option there even fucking is? You are still dependent on somethings in one way or another, the only true way to be independent is basically to be rich.
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

Member
Feb 24, 2026
82
we aren't! it's why i want out.
 
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Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Student
Oct 24, 2021
175
yeah, i often wonder how there aren't mass riots all the time since everyone seems miserable now about the high cost of living, the average wages and just generally existing in a rapidly decaying society
 
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neverexistedd

neverexistedd

Member
Mar 13, 2026
30
people aren't okay with it, they just do it because they have to and if their job sucks too much they try to change it, life isn't comfortable and they just want to live their lifes

but there is an another issue, where in this world our jobs occupy us way too much, they take too much time out of our lives, give too little money that we barely can live off of it, stress and annoy us so much it affects our mental health a lot, so a lot of people are more frustrated than they were before

you might be able to land a comfortable job, or work in a field that is interesting or fulfilling for you, but that hard to accomplish !
 
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NotSoEnchanted

NotSoEnchanted

Student
Dec 26, 2025
120
The thought of having to work to earn money so I can pay to stay alive has made me deeply depressed since I was a child. I just never had any interest in doing so, and like you, it makes me feel violently suicidal. I had one job in my life, and it was the easiest job ever, and even then I couldn't maintain it long term and everything fell apart.

I was a homecare worker for one of my elderly roommates. All I had to do was walk down the stairs to the basement, and help her care for herself. I smoked weed with her, cigarettes, sat on my phone, watched T.V, and got paid like over $20 an hour. Yet even then both my physical and mental health troubles caught up to me, and I slowly but surely began to deteriorate. I ended up quitting and moving states, and haven't had a job since.

I'm really just not cut out for the way the world works, and I no longer want to participate.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Warlock
Dec 24, 2025
718
i havent worked yet, just now doing an internship for my career. its working in early childhood education. i genuinely look forward to going there and being with the children every week though. i always knew this was the only career i ever wanted to do and would enjoy. i imagine i wont feel the same when im actually working, older, living alone, managing my own bills and all the other dreadful stuff adults do that i hardly understand. i didnt feel great when i was a NEET either. i kind of like the inbetween of being a student but its not forever :c
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
376
I genuinely will never understand how people cope with this. I understand a lot of people are depressed while working, but how does it not make you violently suicidal?

I had a job about a year and a half ago, barely worked there three months before quitting. I don't want to go back to school, because I just don't want a job.

Death truly is the only way out, unless you're born into an uber rich family. I'm insanely miserable, even though I don't have a job. Life in general sucks and I just don't want to be here at all.
if that's your photo and you're anywhere from 5'11"-6'2" you could just be a runway model and get paid to wear clothes and have your picture taken. even if you're short you could just do catalogue stuff, although it's getting harder with AI. is that really you?
 
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neverexistedd

Member
Mar 13, 2026
30
if that's your photo and you're anywhere from 5'11"-6'2" you could just be a runway model and get paid to wear clothes and have your picture taken. even if you're short you could just do catalogue stuff, although it's getting harder with AI. is that really you?
no its not his photo, that is an influencer called "clavicular" that is famous among the "looksmaxxing" clique
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

Long sought rest
Feb 8, 2026
105
I feel the exact same
I can barely hold a job, and even if I wanted to go to university I can hardly handle that too honestly. The idea of having to do work just to live is horrible. I don't want to have to be elderly, servely disabled, or in a relationship just to not work. I wish I could just live. Follow my passions without worry

Unfortunately, it's a reality that we have to work to live. Thankfully, none of us have to live in this reality forever
Also, yeah, I wish I was super rich too :')
Everything would be so much easier then
 
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zdeweilx

zdeweilx

It's over
Dec 15, 2025
190
I genuinely will never understand how people cope with this. I understand a lot of people are depressed while working, but how does it not make you violently suicidal?

I had a job about a year and a half ago, barely worked there three months before quitting. I don't want to go back to school, because I just don't want a job.

Death truly is the only way out, unless you're born into an uber rich family. I'm insanely miserable, even though I don't have a job. Life in general sucks and I just don't want to be here at all.
Nobody is okay with it. People just need to be able to make ends meet
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
540
Were no okay with it. At all. But we have to do it in order to survive. Food in bellys and a roof over our heads.
 
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fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
376
no its not his photo, that is an influencer called "clavicular" that is famous among the "looksmaxxing" clique
thanks, i get it now

yeah it's hard to know if that clavicular dude would have been looking like a model no matter what, or if the random stuff he did made him look more like a model. it's probably most genetics, but who knows.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,629
images
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
344
I ask myself this pretty much every single day. I'm violently suicidal thinking about having to work for the rest of my life and I feel like I'm going insane. I know practically no-one likes to go to work, but most people seem to be able to handle it and go with the flow and that is unfathomable to me. I'm barely surviving and want to quit my job constantly.
 
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wine is fine but

whiskey's quicker
Jul 26, 2025
141
in basic terms, humans need structure in their lives

if they have nothing to get up for, they do not get up, or at the very least do nothing whilst they are up

food, shelter, cars, music and all of those other things that make life bearable require money to do it - i would rather be at work all day making money, then sitting down watching some bs on the computer or tv to pass the time away
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
356
ב''ה,

People, including family and those I supported in the civil rights bullshit, literally ruined my life so I would have to work more and harder.

So I finally started keeping Shabbat, because I've got the heritage somehow and 'if you aren't taking the day off G-d wants you to why do you deserve anything,' but embarrassing anyone not keeping it is also bad and maybe they've got big important things to do that permit starting up an internal combination engine while being mad at cyclists because... there's a bunch of weird Orthodox excuses for that.

In fairness it's nice to at least get one day off a week, good Shabbat y'all. But good luck even finding an actual Rabbi who will recognize that the point is to figure out what 'enough' work is and do that rather than simply pointing out that you could always work harder if you spent less time worrying about enjoying life or maintaining your health. Except, if you're addicted to Adderall and smiling at Germans that's okay for some reason.
 
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Gabbi_Station

Member
Jul 30, 2024
97
yeah, i often wonder how there aren't mass riots all the time since everyone seems miserable now about the high cost of living, the average wages and just generally existing in a rapidly decaying society
Because everyone is too depressed and broken to do anything about it
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,854
Honestly, I enjoy being productive and doing tasks if they're fulfilling or stimulating for me. The issue I have with work is the politics and total lack of control you have. Every time you start a new job, it's a dice roll of what the social dynamics and rules are going to be.

I don't mind working when others respect that you are a human being first of all, and not a robot with infinite capacity to produce labor. Unfortunately, many of the jobs I've had before have been customer facing and even pressure you to not go to the toilet when you're about to pee yourself, for the convenience of the customer. It's completely infuriating that people care more about external image than employees getting a UTI because they don't get proper breaks.

Then there's also the guilt tripping about pulling weight or causing inconvenience to others, if you need to take time off work. In most situations, this could be avoided if companies hired adequate staff, but then they don't. Things are made artificially difficult when they don't have to be.

So I think for a lot of people, it isn't actually doing work that's the problem, it's the environment and conditions. While I've had extremely bad luck with most of my jobs, I know a few people who have working conditions that are more laid back, they aren't overworked and can take many days off, so their job doesn't bother them. Once again, it's just being at the right place at the right time, to be lucky enough for those kinds of luxuries.
 
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yotaka

明日にはすべてが終るとして
Jan 29, 2026
130
I understand that a lot of people—maybe even most—get satisfaction and a sense of order from having a job. At least I understand it on an intellectual level. I don't feel it at all, though. I've worked a dozen or so jobs in my life, all of them very different, and at best they've been barely tolerable. Most of them (including the one I'm stuck in right now) feel like torture. I dread waking up five days out of the week. Like, I'm not saying that people who enjoy being employed are somehow bad. I just can't fathom it. And it's not like I want to sit around and doomscroll either. There are so many things I want to do, but I have to expend most of my time and all of my energy doing stupid pointless bullshit for a paycheck.
 
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Defatigatis

Defatigatis

And at my funeral, i didn't see you there..
Aug 16, 2022
87
I agree in all sentences, that's exactly one of the main reasons I want CTB. Also unless the person is selfish and was born rich, i can't understand how people feel comfortable with capitalism, even when they have bread and circuses; after a while, the anesthesia wears off, but apparently, that doesn't apply to most people.
 
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fallendevil

fallendevil

certified trainwreck
Oct 6, 2024
768
They have a purpose greater than themselves or have never really questioned anything existentially because they don't have the time or energy to do so.
 
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dirkw83

Member
Mar 4, 2026
29
Idk but here in the Netherlands you can easily choose not to work and just chill all day. You'll live on wellfare but if you're decently handy with money it's more than enough for one person. The part of the government that's supposed to force you into a job is massively understaffed so if you just show up to your appointment but otherwise make the minimal effort to work eventually you'll just be seen as a lost cause and they'll let you off the hook because they have younger people they'd rather invest their time in. But even when you're still young, the pressure is minimal.
 
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Kai64

Kai64

He/Him, lost all hope
Mar 16, 2026
23
I genuinely will never understand how people cope with this. I understand a lot of people are depressed while working, but how does it not make you violently suicidal?

I had a job about a year and a half ago, barely worked there three months before quitting. I don't want to go back to school, because I just don't want a job.

Death truly is the only way out, unless you're born into an uber rich family. I'm insanely miserable, even though I don't have a job. Life in general sucks and I just don't want to be here at all.
I am almost graduating at an online university and yet i am not happy with my current situation.

I have barely managed to study and to keep my concetration due to my autism, i didn't learned anything and i am not happy with it, i am just doing it to not disappoint my mom who gets angry easily.

My life is also miserable, even after my mom managed to rise her salary a bit the bills just seem to get worse by month and that sucks.

I don't want to keep bringing disgrace to her if she thinks i am a really bad son like she said many times when she was angry.

I will be ctb at late May, i just need to find a painless suicide method here and i will be able to die on the day i planned.
 
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Quiltsand

New Member
Mar 27, 2026
2
I already worked my life away. I started working at Tesla in 2016, and worked 6PM-6AM everyday except Monday. Working was my escape because I was abused as a child and my only friend had already killed himself. Working hard labor was easier than what I had to deal with when I was a child. Later on I got into a car crash and was injured and could no longer work there. Later i moved to the east but the pandemic hit and I didn't leave the house. I got into online gambling and lost 175k in two weeks on stake. I've been paying off debts for the last 3 years. I am now in my 30's with no parents, no other family, only friends have been dead for over 10 years. I had six figure savings at 27 but nothing now, had a new car but that was recently stolen. I'm in my 30s and never celebrated a birthday or experienced non violence. When I was able bodied and working it was the best moments of my life. It's a bit sick but working all night doing monotonous tasks was the best thing I ever experienced. Crazy how fast it can all be lost
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

TheBiggestNarcissist
Mar 15, 2025
652
I agree 100% I'd rather be homeless than go back to work or school at this point. At least with most jobs and school anyway.
 
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m4rmaid

m4rmaid

New Member
Mar 28, 2026
2
it baffles me how we ended up being rats and slaves to capitalists, its as if in order to deserve to live you have to work yourself to the grave
 
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silent wraith

silent wraith

Outsider facing society
Mar 28, 2026
2
This is something I do not understand myself. I understand that I HAVE to work to get some money - to actually afford to simply exist.
This is another thing I do not understand : How a citizen gets a job as a young person and stays in one job for years ...till they get old. I simply can't imagine that , finding job will be very difficult for me 🫤
Then again - money is a man made concept , we were not born to live the way we do
 
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Not_A_Seagull

Student
Jul 6, 2022
126
I genuinely will never understand how people cope with this. I understand a lot of people are depressed while working, but how does it not make you violently suicidal?

I had a job about a year and a half ago, barely worked there three months before quitting. I don't want to go back to school, because I just don't want a job.

Death truly is the only way out, unless you're born into an uber rich family. I'm insanely miserable, even though I don't have a job. Life in general sucks and I just don't want to be here at all.
Right, how the hell is ANYONE ok with working all of their lives to get nothing in return
 
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