Horrible events are controlling

[Life_and_Death]

On this day 7 years ago something happened. I dont want to go into it and what it was doesnt matter.

What matters is that 7 years later it still hurts me. 14 days before and 6 days after....but it was this specific year thats stuck in comparison to the other 20. I hope this one will be the start of new memories.

Advice, FYI, be VERY cautious what you do on memorable days.

(Also yes i know the math doesnt add up and i cant figure it out. Nope i figured it out)

 

[western_heart]

I'm sorry that the horrible event happened to you. I can relate.

I had my own horrible event. The 5th anniversary of it was in January, and this year it affected me especially hard. Flashbacks started two weeks before and lasted for a few months. In some ways I'm still not the same as I was in December 2020, and I'm not sure if I ever can be.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I hope this one will be the start of new memories.

Well...almost. The day wasnt too bad....until it all went to hell around bed. Crying. Mentalbreak down. Crying. Self hatred. Crying. And to top it all off my father didnt say happy birthday....thanks dad.

 

[Brave_heart]

Well...almost. The day wasnt too bad....until it all went to hell around bed. Crying. Mentalbreak down. Crying. Self hatred. Crying. And to top it all off my father didnt say happy birthday....thanks dad.

Happy belated birthday I'm sorry bedtime was rough for you.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Happy belated birthday I'm sorry bedtime was rough for you.

Thank you :)
It was partically my own fault. I messaged my friend saying i was gonna roll a joint and he said "if it helps" i asked him if he wanted the truth, he said yes so i told him that its just going to make it worse. Ensue basically everything mentioned above

Crying. Mentalbreak down. Crying. Self hatred. Crying

I wasnt doing the best before that though....

 

[Largeletters]

I'm sorry you're going through this... I wish things could magically get better.

 

[Kattt]

I have no doubt your point is totally valid.
there's another way to see it if you want....every moment that event controls your life,it's living rent free in your head.
I know it's not as easy as just "forget it"-everyone has issues like that.
But to what extent you let it ruin your future,is down to you.