Hopelessness

[SomewhereAlongThe]

People are naturally so hopeful, but I wish they wouldn't be hopeful towards me.
I've lost all hope, and I don't try anymore unless it's building an exit bag.
I feel so much hopelessness and nothing will help me, I don't want help, I want someone who just gets it.
Someone who knows there's no peace or place where I belong in sight. Someone who wishes me farewell, because they get it.
It's a painful place, we only get one life, one life, and my life is wasted because my genetics are poor.
Everybody seems to have something, anything they are good at but I have nothing I am good at.
I cannot pursue my passions because I lack the raw ability to.
No amount of practice or handwork will change that.

The only thing that's worked out for me is putting together an exit bag.

 

[matt.7890]

So sorry to hear that - I can fully relate.. I don't know much about your situation, how old you are, your health condition etc but as long as you are relatively young and healthy and the main reason is that you have no skill or passion yet, I would encourage you to keep searching as long as you possibly can.. Fingers crossed for you and wish you all the best

 

[lost_one]

You came to the right place, I think most of us here get it.

I am not good at anything either, I am average at best. I have no hope either. I hate mysel and I don't think I deserve to be happy or that even if I did, that would ever come to pass.

I am honestly torn between life and death.

I usually say something slightly different than you: "There is nothing in this world for me".

So like I said I get it. And I am sorry you feel that way, cause I also know how much it sucks

 

[ididnotconsent]

This place kinda grounds me a bit, like i know I'm not the only one going through it and I'm not a special snowflake. We all suffer and we all die. Like I'm not being the one singled out or personally cursed by god.

It does make things feel more trivial though, like none of it matters. Maybe that's a good thing, if a bit sad.