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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
This past month and a half I'm really deteriorating. I can barely eat, lost 15 pounds. I can barely focus at work and I don't know how I'll do the projects I need to finish. I'm not interested in anything. Can't even watch YouTube, movies, shows.
Only things that give me comfort is thinking about death and visiting this forum.
I hope I'll ctb in the next two weeks. A good opportunity should arise.
 
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NextSummer

NextSummer

Experienced
Mar 28, 2019
278
Sounds like a depression. It can get better, you might enjoy life again. Did you ever went to see a psychiatrist?
 
Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
I tried all kinds of meds. They're the reason I'm in this situation in the first place. I'm sick of them.
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
I'm sorry. I know how bad this sort of thing feels. A few months ago, I could have written this post.

I'm not going tell you it's going to be fine, but maybe we can figure something out to help you feel a little better?

Are you on any medication right now?
 
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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
No, right now I'm not on any medication.
 
k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
Have you ever had your thyroid and vitamin D levels checked? If those are off, it can send you into the most dysfunctional depression. I know from experience.
 
passenger27

passenger27

In my beginning is my end.
Aug 25, 2019
642
I hope things can get better for you but I know when you're depressed you don't want to hear things like that. Regardless, I agree about this site comforting you. It does me as well. Personally, I think SS is more therapeutic than seeing a therapist because people on here have lived through all this hell instead of going to school and reading a book on how to counsel mentally ill people so they can take your money. I'd rather talk to somebody who's lived it instead of learned it, I think that's why therapy never worked for me. But if this forum is one of the only things that gives you peace, please stick with it if you can. There's always somebody to talk to.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,024
I'm sorry that things are really shitty in your life, and whatever you choose to do between now and in two weeks' time, I hope you are able to find peace.
 

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