Hesitations

[silentsinger]

I want to go. I don't mean anything to myself and I am fairly sure I am no good to anybody. I feel trapped in a constant cycle of wanting to go but too afraid of certain scenarios that may occur.
Part of me wonders whether this means that I am not yet ready, or is it just that I need to bite the bullet? It would be better than this same cycle every day.
I don't want to be a nuisance but I feel trapped.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

We're in the same boat. I can almost think of nothing but suicide, and yet always run into the same mental blocks: what if I fail again, and end up in a worse state than I'm in? Or how devistated would my family be? I'm just stuck at this impasse. I wish someone would make up my mind for me.

 

[Roadkill]

We're in the same boat. I can almost think of nothing but suicide, and yet always run into the same mental blocks: what if I fail again, and end up in a worse state than I'm in? Or how devistated would my family be? I'm just stuck at this impasse. I wish someone would make up my mind for me.

this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in

 

[Dead beat dad]

I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD

 

[silentsinger]

I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD

Your teacher sounds pretty cool. I also really like the quote form old man river. It seems to be very relatable for many people.
Thank you.

this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in

I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD

I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD

this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in

this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in

It is one of the scariest aspects of it, isn't it?

 

[lupin333]

I feel like with me, I'm in a constant state of limbo. I want to die and move on, but the fear of not succeeding, whats next, and much more is prolonging the state I'm in.

 

[Ch92921]

no hesitation

 

[silentsinger]

I feel like with me, I'm in a constant state of limbo. I want to die and move on, but the fear of not succeeding, whats next, and much more is prolonging the state I'm in.

I feel exactly the same

 

[lupin333]

I feel exactly the same

Such a brutal feeling and so constant :(