It truly is another torture year and the suffering and torture of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence is endless, all that this existence does is just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, there is no happiness in existing rather to me existence will always be the most terrible mistake that just causes pain and suffering, all I want is to never suffer again, for me non-existence is just all that's positive as every second is torture to be conscious, it truly is so horrific how much harm this existence causes with existing beings in agony every second.