Help me plan?

[InAust2]

So my health is deteriorating and I have decided I don't plan on sticking around until I decay further. Honestly I'd like to live but not in this state of health so I am left with no other choice... a reality I'm still having to come to terms with. I've had 3 failed attempts so far... OD (slept for 3 days), Nitrogen (came very very close) woke up convulsing, next I tried jumping but couldn't do it.

I've learnt my lessons and this time I have 2 bottles of N (I weight 85kg) and primperan... hopefully this will get the job done.

I am married and want to minimise my death on others including my wife. If I tell anyone or I start to reduce my footprint then I will be stopped and locked up again.

I need help choosing a location, ideally I want to be relaxed and not stressed and clearly not interrupted. Where do you think is good? A hotel seems like a sensible option.

How do you think I can arrange my body to discovered without upsetting people?

What kind of excuse can I use to get away without arousing suspicion?

What other things can I do to minimise my impact?

Thank you, sorry if it's a lot of questions.

 

[Vaughn]

Sorry to hear how painful your situation is. I am in the same position - had colon cancer and now it is in the bones. I will leave before I suffer too long. I have told a few members of my family that I was going to mexico to end my life and that chances are I will not come back. When I presented the facts of my illness to my friends they understood. Some said "I don't agree with your chosen manner to die, but it is your life"... So before I left home to come to mexico - I went through all my family photos and sent them to my god-daughter as I want the pics to remain in the family. I am not sure if you are sure for quite some time, but I saw this coming a short while back,and well now for me "is the time"
You may want to talk about your illness to your close friends and family - some support from them may be possible. Chose your manner of departing well, and plan it well so that you do not miss your goal. For me, I delayed it a bit much, and am much in pain most of the time. I finally found the way I want to go, and will see if this happens in the near future.
good luck dear one.