Venting Help, I just want to chill a bit

[Can'tStandAnymore]

My first post here had deleted because of the some of the reasons like my age. I wish I can post this under the my first post.

I have every material required for the SN protocol. I can do it even tomorrow If I wanted. But the problem is my family. I don't fucking know if I should leave them and end this torture or stay with them and endure everything.

It's not only because of my terrible life but my neurologic problems. I lost all my emotions, sexual desires, cognitive abilities etc. I have IBS, alzheimer, parkinson's disease. Everything sucks, oh god. Fuck everything.

I wouldn't been stay here even for a milisecond if I don't have a family.

 

[Psilo]

Same situation for me. It sucks to leave them behind, but I can't continue to live this miserable life just to keep them happy.

Sorry I know this situation sucks.

 

[big-nothing]

I'm sorry that I can't give you an answer or any advice, but yeah, it's really tough. Whilst I'm personally not that invested in my family with the exception of my brother, I'm fortunate enough to have some wonderful, kind, and supportive friends. Even just the knowledge that I'm suicidal is already destroying them - I hate to think about how much more pain I'd end up causing with my death.