Venting Having people care about you feels like a burden

[Leonard_Bangley39]

I mean this when i say i genuinely cannot understand why people care for me. At times, all i want to do is disappear from the face of the earth and rot away. But i can't because there are people who love me and won't be able to handle it if i die. All i do is hurt those around me and yet they still care about me. it just makes me hate myself even more and want to die

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

I feel you. im in a similar struggle. i feel like im such a nuisance tho, and i dint understand why anyone except for my family cares. (for family i kinda at least understand, years of bonding and whatever)

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's strange to think that being cared for can be a burden but I agree, it can. I think that's the unfortunate thing about life in general- that we build up sometimes many codependent relationships effectively. Maybe not in day to day living but definitely when it comes to suicide. We often know we can't do it without deeply hurting others.