Fuck no, I've only lost friends or whatever the fuck they were. Now I think about dying more than 1/2 of every day & actually can't think of anything I look forward to or want to do, other than die & sleep. And I would really like to die because this has just become so horrible. Each day is the same, no one cares. I really really want to be dead. I would not mind if someone killed me, as they'd be doing me a favor.