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demitriusmigsysvotf

demitriusmigsysvotf

It takes a man to be a man
Oct 1, 2023
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During my life I have been venting to some close people to me, telling my shit and etc. And all the time it all ended up that I`m sort of a fucking psycho that I want to ctb but find a reason to live in ones I loved. It just all ends up that they tell me I`m disgusting, that they just break down on me. Cause its "my" fault, that I deserved all agression they throw on me. It`s like they can say at the random moment that they hate me and that they should`ve found other person. Shit, that hurts a lot, especially the fact that I trusted them and because of that kept repeating all my mistakes and shit. I donno, I just can`t let the past go.
 
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Daryl72

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Mar 12, 2024
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During my life I have been venting to some close people to me, telling my shit and etc. And all the time it all ended up that I`m sort of a fucking psycho that I want to ctb but find a reason to live in ones I loved. It just all ends up that they tell me I`m disgusting, that they just break down on me. Cause its "my" fault, that I deserved all agression they throw on me. It`s like they can say at the random moment that they hate me and that they should`ve found other person. Shit, that hurts a lot, especially the fact that I trusted them and because of that kept repeating all my mistakes and shit. I donno, I just can`t let the past go.
You are not alone in that way of thinking. It's very hard to let go of the past. Also I feel like everything was mistakes and stupid decisions that led me to searching desperately not a way to end it all
 
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ultrasharpy123456

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Aug 18, 2022
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I am very aware that it's my fault.
 
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