I don't have a living family,at all. They are a major part of why my life crumbled but I hate that killing myself would only reinforce their perception of me as a burden.
When I confessed my plans to a friend and he told my family,it made things worse. Now I'm just aware of how much of a burden it'll be on the otherwise picture perfect family. It annoys me, it's literally the only thing holding me back. I don't have guilt about hurting anybody. Only guilt about being a burden in death.
The other option is to continue living and suffering alone while my family enjoys their lives. Why should I honestly
When I confessed my plans to a friend and he told my family,it made things worse. Now I'm just aware of how much of a burden it'll be on the otherwise picture perfect family. It annoys me, it's literally the only thing holding me back. I don't have guilt about hurting anybody. Only guilt about being a burden in death.
The other option is to continue living and suffering alone while my family enjoys their lives. Why should I honestly
