Welcome to the club, as they said above the brain gets fucked up when your life is a trauma.
When I was a child and teenager I used to be a little more empathetic and sensitive, I couldn't even see blood that scared me.
Recently my grandmother died of an acv in front of me, I didn't even flinch or mourn.
I am an absolute zombie, but more like a psychotic one or something like that.
The other day on the street some homeless guys approached me and wanted to ask me for money in a pretty violent way, I reacted instantly in a cold way and held one of them looking him in the eyes. the guy was really scared.
I discovered all this and I started watching gore videos, they cause me absolutely nothing.
I leave my house for the night.
I also believe that it is the fault of so much medication for so long