Discussion Has anyone felt like this?

[RideOrDie]

You sleep and everything feel almost fine, then you wake up to this awful sinking feeling. You don't have anything going on in your mind, just this feeling and the longer it stays, thoughts of ctb flood in. I can't even accurately describe the feeling, just that it's awful, and it's been a cycle of feeling like this everytime I wake up, as if all of my energy was drained and I don't want to get up anymore, but when I actually do there's something that wants to pull me back down again. Then when I would cry my eyes out for no logical reason at all just because "I don't feel so good" it's just pure empty sadness out of nowhere all of a sudden. After I cry, I would feel very numb. Then it repeats, a cycle I want to stop. I wonder, does anyone feel like this too?

 

[exitsimulation]

thats anxiety 101 ive lived with that exact feeling for 12 years

 

[Muach]

Yes!!! I do, especially upon waking up, that shittiest worthlessness, my God, another meaningless, evil day.

But my nerves have gotten fade up with the feeling these days, i immediatly resort to alcohol, i just open a bottle of beer then to a more stronger drink,

also, Amitriptyline, it has a numbing effect for me.

 

[dirtnap]

Yes! My dreams are far better than my reality.

 

[jodes2]

Yeah i hate waking up to a new day of that sinking feeling

 

[y'ffre]

Yes, same for me, I usually don't remember my dreams and I think my dreams trigger those feelings. All my worries and fears probably materialize for hours when sleeping. If I take this assumption as real I wouldn't be too surprised by the awful feelings in the mornings.

 

[Soulless Angel]

since my world was turned upside down on weds, every morning I have woken like this, sitting here now, awake yet feeling like this, its pushing me to the ctb path fast. I am not living like this every day for the next however fucking long it will be

 

[FuneralCry]

It's always an awful feeling whenever I wake up, having to exist really is so horrible. I'm just so tired of it all. Those who pass away peacefully in their sleep really are lucky.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Pretty much me every day for the past 18 months. I pretty much only get up and go to work. Oh, and eat at least once a day. Pretty much nothing else besides mundane things to pass the time until I just decide today is the day. Life has lost its luster for me and it saddens me greatly because I could find fascination in the most mundane of things at one point....but, now there is only a dull washed out grey. Hopefully soon....