Happy to be sad

[DeathSaves]

Depression is my life, i'm comfortable with being depressed, although i'm currently considering killing myself since i've been arrested in a private jail, or rehab clinic.

I've never felt like being too happy, and even if i do feel happy, i guess i'd rather go back to being sad. Does anybody understand what this feels like?

 

[WOODESITY]

This might sound weird but I wished many times to be sad/depressed otherwise i feel guilty. I honestly don't want happiness, I want courage to ctb.. there were times when I felt happy or normal I guess and I wished I wasn't

 

[aspx]

I understand you and I also feel like the same. I kinda like feeling sad because of the inner peace and because of the kindness that is related to it.
Maybe we've evolved to like this feeling, which a lot of people isn't comfortable with.

considering killing myself since i've been arrested in a private jail, or rehab clinic

Sorry to hear that. Isn't there a way to get out of there? Being forced to be in a rehab clinic doesn't seem to make any sense.