There's no happiness in any of this rather it's the opposite, this existence really is the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering and the fact that this existence was imposed in the first place truly is the most devastating tragedy to me.
All that existence does is just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured with existing beings in agony every second, I just don't see this abomination as something to celebrate, no matter what I'd never wish for this torturous, futile existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I see it as such a punishment to exist, to me existence is so evil and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this horrific world so cruelly denied the option to never exist again.