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Bex83

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Aug 26, 2018
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So booked in too my hotel once again. The difference is this time I've set my rope up before I drink. I normally go for partial, but trying full this time, same set up , rope over the door tied secured. Putting pillows on the ground incase I fall. Going to step of the chair and hope I succeed. Just want some prayers. 8 times this year and failed, this has to be my time :)
 
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Bex83

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Aug 26, 2018
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Damn, how did that happen?
I know I've tried so hard last year. But biting the bullet and going full, can't deny scared . But partial is not working for me, and the massive over dose failed big time. Hope I go unconscious quickly.
 
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therhydler

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Dec 7, 2018
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I'll be praying for you, hope it is quick and painless. I will probably also be going for full soon and I am very scared. But from everything I have read it seems consciousness should be lost fairly quickly. Hugs
 
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21Neberg

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Dec 17, 2018
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So booked in too my hotel once again. The difference is this time I've set my rope up before I drink. I normally go for partial, but trying full this time, same set up , rope over the door tied secured. Putting pillows on the ground incase I fall. Going to step of the chair and hope I succeed. Just want some prayers. 8 times this year and failed, this has to be my time :)

Respect for trying so many times and still pushing through for another attempt. I wish you the best of luck
 
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Bex83

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Aug 26, 2018
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I'll be praying for you, hope it is quick and painless. I will probably also be going for full soon and I am very scared. But from everything I have read it seems consciousness should be lost fairly quickly. Hugs
Hope so :) Thankyou and hope it works out for you .
 
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Bex83

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Aug 26, 2018
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Respect for trying so many times and still pushing through for another attempt. I wish you the best of luck
Thankyou so much :)
 
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15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
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Hope everything goes well and you have a peaceful journey. Hugs
 
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Bex83

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Aug 26, 2018
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Hope everything goes well and you have a peaceful journey. Hugs
Me too scared, but what is a few minutes of pain in comparison to years off hell
 
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stellabelle

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Dec 14, 2018
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I hope things go well and as intended for you. I'm sorry that you've suffered through eight attempts to finally reach this point.
 
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Jiva

Jiva

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Nov 18, 2018
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So booked in too my hotel once again. The difference is this time I've set my rope up before I drink. I normally go for partial, but trying full this time, same set up , rope over the door tied secured. Putting pillows on the ground incase I fall. Going to step of the chair and hope I succeed. Just want some prayers. 8 times this year and failed, this has to be my time :)
My plan is the same, if i find the courage. This is the sole way, i think. By partial i failed many times. Have a luck.
 
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Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
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Sorry to hear about the failures, I know how that is. I hope you find your peace.
 
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wanttodie

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hope it is quick and painless. im hoppeing to end it son to
 
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