shesalreadygone
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- Mar 23, 2026
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---------- About me and past attempts
These past days have been really weird for me. My first attempt was at 23rd of feb, using the helium method, as I learned on "Dignified Dying" by Boudewijn Chabot. (I'm 19, go to college, and live with a roomate.) Everything was going as planned, texted those who matter most, left a few notes around my room, said my goodbyes to everything, I was confortable on leaving this world. Then I just, wake up from it. Won't go much in detail but it was an awful experience. First time in a while that I audibly cried.
Then the next days were absolutely awful. Having a near death experience, specially from attempting suicide is not good. But I still was (and still am) convicted 100% on what I want. So I tried again, this time with a bigger tank. Double the size. I do everything I did before again, (except texting others, they still think I am dead, which hurts me a lot to think about.) but, just like last time, I wake up from it again. Again, it was awful. But this time, my instinct was to laugh? I didn't cry like last time. I just laughed for some reason. I guess I was just filled with anger that it didn't work once again.
--------- New method
So I decided to go with a different method, as the helium didn't seem to work for me. The issue was on the bag I was using I guess.
I decided then to use the hanging method, since those are most likely to work, I guess. Did some research on it, and it seems like it sucks being strangulated to death, slowly. So I thought about those old execution methods, where the one who is hang die instantly. Turns out it has a name, the long-drop hanging. Instead of being strangulated, the person dies (Instantly) from having their neck broken by the rope with a certain height.
Did more research on it, and I feel like I'm ready once more to try this. But just recently did I came across this website. Until then I've been getting my awnsers from those books I mentioned. So I felt alleviated when I found a place for me to talk about it. So here are some of my questions...
--------- Questions
-> On my research about the long-drop method, I found that the rope needs to be tied a certain way around your neck, that ensures it to break. How do I tie it? Or if someone can please link another thread that talks about it.
-> Is the long-drop a decent method? It's the one I wanted to try, after having failed twice. I've seen ppl around here talking about SN, so would you say that one is preferable over hanging?
These past days have been really weird for me. My first attempt was at 23rd of feb, using the helium method, as I learned on "Dignified Dying" by Boudewijn Chabot. (I'm 19, go to college, and live with a roomate.) Everything was going as planned, texted those who matter most, left a few notes around my room, said my goodbyes to everything, I was confortable on leaving this world. Then I just, wake up from it. Won't go much in detail but it was an awful experience. First time in a while that I audibly cried.
Then the next days were absolutely awful. Having a near death experience, specially from attempting suicide is not good. But I still was (and still am) convicted 100% on what I want. So I tried again, this time with a bigger tank. Double the size. I do everything I did before again, (except texting others, they still think I am dead, which hurts me a lot to think about.) but, just like last time, I wake up from it again. Again, it was awful. But this time, my instinct was to laugh? I didn't cry like last time. I just laughed for some reason. I guess I was just filled with anger that it didn't work once again.
--------- New method
So I decided to go with a different method, as the helium didn't seem to work for me. The issue was on the bag I was using I guess.
I decided then to use the hanging method, since those are most likely to work, I guess. Did some research on it, and it seems like it sucks being strangulated to death, slowly. So I thought about those old execution methods, where the one who is hang die instantly. Turns out it has a name, the long-drop hanging. Instead of being strangulated, the person dies (Instantly) from having their neck broken by the rope with a certain height.
Did more research on it, and I feel like I'm ready once more to try this. But just recently did I came across this website. Until then I've been getting my awnsers from those books I mentioned. So I felt alleviated when I found a place for me to talk about it. So here are some of my questions...
--------- Questions
-> On my research about the long-drop method, I found that the rope needs to be tied a certain way around your neck, that ensures it to break. How do I tie it? Or if someone can please link another thread that talks about it.
-> Is the long-drop a decent method? It's the one I wanted to try, after having failed twice. I've seen ppl around here talking about SN, so would you say that one is preferable over hanging?
