Story Had a dream with the death angel

[FadingSnowFake]

Woke up this morning from what felt so real, so nightmarish. I did something wrong at work, which was somehow unfairly connected to someone falling from a third-floor balcony and dying on impact. I was sitting somewhere hiding from the crowds, not knowing what to do, when a woman with the most intense eyes came to join me. Her features and complexion too unnatural to be a person. I knew she had to tell me it's time. I knew from her eyes, and I asked for a few hours, just a few hours to say goodbye to my person who is behind me in time on another continent.

I knew I will have to ctb, that it is the only option after what happened at work. I thought that I didn't really want to do it but understand now how it feels to have to do it. And that possibility could come true at any time, for anyone of us, when things go horribly wrong.

I don't know what it means, and don't want to make too much out of it, but it was scary.

 

[soul2realm]

Some time ago a similar incident happened to me only the wordings and the messenger was different. I have been searching online to find an answer only to come across a few yt videos of self-proclaimed psychics according to whom ctb or suicide can sometimes be the way a person exits this world. And after what's been happening in my life I can see life push me in the same direction.
I understand to what you are saying but its hard to put in words. Something remotely close will as if ctb candidates are somehow predestined. But its just my translation , no proof or fact.

 

[lanadelreyisgod223]

Woke up this morning from what felt so real, so nightmarish. I did something wrong at work, which was somehow unfairly connected to someone falling from a third-floor balcony and dying on impact. I was sitting somewhere hiding from the crowds, not knowing what to do, when a woman with the most intense eyes came to join me. Her features and complexion too unnatural to be a person. I knew she had to tell me it's time. I knew from her eyes, and I asked for a few hours, just a few hours to say goodbye to my person who is behind me in time on another continent.

I knew I will have to ctb, that it is the only option after what happened at work. I thought that I didn't really want to do it but understand now how it feels to have to do it. And that possibility could come true at any time, for anyone of us, when things go horribly wrong.

I don't know what it means, and don't want to make too much out of it, but it was scary.

if this is what happens, it honestly brings me peace and comfort that an angel will appear to guide me. i'm terrified of going and feeling so alone and scared.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

if this is what happens, it honestly brings me peace and comfort that an angel will appear to guide me. i'm terrified of going and feeling so alone and scared.

This angel didn't look as if she came from the "good" place though, more like I f*cked up and it was too late to make things right. But there was a feeling of some kind of relief/finality maybe, with life having been such a nightmare. There was another person who saw us talking, he was looking from a window above and disappeared when I looked up. Not sure, but I thought he watched to see that I get the message, and that if I don't do it, he will have to. This was a dream, or it could be more, who knows. But I do believe that in the process of making peace before leaving, something will be guiding us.

 

[soul2realm]

But I do believe that in the process of making peace before leaving, something will be guiding us.

Hoping for the same and just to add, it will give the comfort of knowing someone's on the other end. I mean I do believe that there will be but just a confirmation in the form of accompanying guiding angel - that's serene.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I knew I will have to ctb, that it is the only option after what happened at work. I thought that I didn't really want to do it but understand now how it feels to have to do it. And that possibility could come true at any time, for anyone of us, when things go horribly wrong.

I don't know what it means, and don't want to make too much out of it, but it was scary.

Had some time to process this, and I'm still here. Got to admit there were a few days of me being on edge a bit, of something bad happening to make things fall apart again. I saw the person who died in my dream, we chatted like normal, felt a bit strange. Then a thought came, maybe the death angel tried to warn me. To not "play" with suicidal thoughts, because death is real. I also feel more aware of how temporary we are. How all of this doesn't even matter. How f*cked up this world is, with so much suffering. And in the end, we all die anyways.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Dreams are so strange.
I'm not even into men but some time ago I had a whole dream about being married to this big guy and having a little boy and walking around a house laughing. I woke up and was like uhhhh is that alternate reality me or wtf...